I don't really understand anymore
It feels so..out of place
I feel so out of place
My nana only pays attention to my sister if we are both down there
Do they not see it?
I understand before it was my parents giving me the attention that I needed but I've given up on it all
Do they not see it?
I almost feel bad for myself
But I probably deserve it
I'm usually at fault for something 8 year old me did
I think im becoming numb to it
To everything- everyone
People telling me they are gonna commit
It doesn't matter anyway
They always survive it
Sometimes I feel like I should get an apology but it's my fault for getting involved.
It's my fault for not saying anything
It's my fault for thinking it was a joke
I'm at fault
That's it
No happy ending :]
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watch all my mental breakdowns in writing
Randomas it says watch my breakdowns because i am..basically a sob story now that i think about it lol and writing has been one of the only things i've been able to use tw: child abuse (from entire family) flashbacks, commit unalive of self (gotta be ✨pr...
