"I Think Your So Good And I'm Nothing Like You"(Complete)

4. Agustus

A/N- I really liked the last chapter, and I hope y'all liked it too! Please don't be afraid to comment I really want to know what y'all think <3 Also you may notice that I changed the cover lol

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       "I think- I think I like you..."  And he starts crying... Oh...Oh my Titan. I sit frozen for a few seconds. This is real right? Whatever, I can question the situation later, I need to comfort him. He finally looks up from his lap and I hug him, hugs make everyone feels better right? He flinches and for a second I think of just giving him space but my body is faster than my mind and I go through with it anyways. I hug him from the side and he goes quiet, like he's shocked. But then he turns his body towards me and hugs back, crying harder than before. He was scared. Scared of being different. That's why he's been weird all week.

        "I think I like you too, Matty" I respond to him, and he pulls away from the hug. "really? Don't mess with me like that." He says to me like he really doesn't believe me. I smile at him softly "Of course." He wipes his face with his uniform sleeve, and just stares at me for a second, I can't tell what he's thinking based off his expression. "...You okay?" I ask him again, probably for the 4th time this week, but this time he gives a real response. "Yeah, I'm just... I don't know, I guess I'm confused. But I've been confused since I met you, so what's new?" He smiles a little bit, his eyes are still puffy though. I find my face red again, and I want to say something but I'm not sure what.

       "You know what? This entire situation is sappy and boring, why don't we play video games or something." I know he's just trying to change the subject, He's never liked Emotional situations, which is understandable. "Sure, what game?" I say as I slip off the bed and onto the floor, Infront of the small tv he has in his room. "Whatever you want." He sits down next to me. I can still feel the emotions in the air despite Matty's attempt to turn this into a normal day of hanging out. "I don't want to choose, you choose the game." " I don't want to choose either." We just stare at eachother for a few seconds, and the silence gets so loud that we both start laughing, even though nothing funny really happened.

         We end up just talking while I text my dad if I can stay the night. No need to ask Matty's mom, she doesn't care, as long as we aren't too loud. We make sure to stay quiet, last time we were loud she yelled at both of us in Spanish for what felt like forever, but it was probably only 3 minutes, all of which I understood nothing of, she seems nice enough though. After my dad's gives me the go ahead to stay over I ask Matty "Sooo, do you know what you are? Like are you gay or-" He seems uncomfortable "Sorry I was just curious."
"No, it's okay... Umm I'm not sure. I've never had a crush on anyone else before." He admits, red in the face.

          "Ooo! I feel so special!" I say excitedly. "Yeah, yeah, is it really such an honor if it's me though?" I know he's trying to be funny but I have a feeling there is some confidence issues lying under that sentence. "Of course it is! Your amazing, Matty" I say, looking in his eyes, which are very pretty for the record. He is really easy to fluster today, it's extremely cute. I sit up from my spot the floor and scooch closer to him. "Your so smart, even though you don't think so, and your so sweet in your own way. I love everything about you, but most of all I love your smile."  I move my hand closer to his. His eyes are locked on my hands. I touch one of his fingers with mine and he starts moving his hand to my mine. before we know it, we are holding hands. I exhale, not realizing I've been holding my breath.

         There's that smile again. I smile back at him, until foot steps are heard just outside the door, and Matholomule disconnects our hands faster than I can register. The door opens and his mom is standing here with her work clothes still on. "Hello Agustus." She barely acknowledges me before turning to Matty (who looks very shaken up and a little scared) to tell him something in Spanish and he responds "Si mamá" which is the only thing I understood from their short interaction. She closes the door and not until we hear footsteps walking down the stairs does Matty start to breath again, and not untill I grab his hand again does he relax his body.

        "Are you okay?" I ask him, yet again. Why wouldn't I be concerned about my.... Wait. What is our relationship status exactly? "Yeah, you know how my mom is, intimidating. And she's kind of not okay with... This." He says, referring to our intertwined hands. "Oh... Okay, well she's definitely wrong." I say, rubbing my thumb on his hand. Mattholomule doesn't say anything. "You know there's nothing wrong with this, right?" "Yeah, I know, it's just that.. everyone says it's wrong, so it's kinda scary for me..." He clears his throat. "Anyways, My mom said we have an hour before we have to go to bed." He's trying to change the subject again. "Okay... There's no way we are going to listen to her right? It's only 9:30 - on a weekend."
"Of course not, I wouldn't subject you to that torture."

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     It's now 10:45, we have to pretend to be asleep whenever we hear footsteps, and so we are laying down, whispering to eachother dumb stuff, because everything is funnier when you have to be quiet. Our laughter dies down and I move from laying with my head by the end of the bed, to laying directly next to Matty. He is still laughing a little bit. That's something else I love about him. The way he laughs is nice, like music. We stare at eachother for a few seconds and he suddenly asks me "What are we?" I don't know. "What do you want us to be?" I ask him. "I want whatever you want" he says. I lean in and kiss him, and through the darkness I can see his eyes are wide and I can tell his face is flushed.

        "Does that answer your question?" I know he can see I'm as red as him with the window light slightly illuminating us.  He rolls onto his back and puts his hands over his eyes. "Titan, why must you do this to me Agustus." I laugh and answer "It's not me, just my irresistible charm." He smiles and turns back over into his original position facing me. "Your such a dork." He tells me. "Wow, so mean to your newly earned boyfriend." I say in a sarcastic tone. He rolls his eyes. Matty let's out a yawn and rests his head on the pillow, still looking at me. "Do you want to go to bed now?" I ask him. "Only if you want to." I know he wont unless I say I want to, so I agree and we close our eyes.