Can You See My Heart

Beautiful dream

Beautiful - A word used to describe someone or something.

Dream - Something thats not real.

My beautiful dream is that i want to be known for my talent. But it's hard when you have a famous brother. I love him dearly, but i don't want to be know as his little sister who sings. Who is my brother you may ask ? His name is Park Seonghwa and he is in a group called Ateez. The members know about me, but haven't met me yet because i am really shy and always find excuses for not meeting them.

I have a secret youtube channel, where i upload covers of songs i love. But no one knows what i look like, because i hide my identity. My brother knows about my channel and supports me, but he also pressures me to show my face and talent to the world. He doesn't understand why i hide myself.

"I want to make myself known, before coming out as you sister." I said.

" So you don't want anybody to know, that i am your brother?" Seonghwa asked frowning.

"Itś not like that. I want to have my own fans and rise to fame." I said " I don't want people to support me just because i'm your sister," i added. "Please tell me you understand me "

"I do understand you, " said Seonghwa " i just don't want to see you feel sad and lonely when i'm not here"

" Altough you are not here physically, i still see you on tv and the internet." i said " I am surrounded by videos of you and the others. "

" I still worry" said Seonghwa

" If i have a problem, i will call you up" I said "please trust me"

"I will trust you and promise me you will call once in a while, so i can check up on you" asked Seonghwa or more like told me what i had to do.

"I promise. You should problably start going back so the members won't worry. " i said

"I will see you when i come back" said Seonghwa, while hugging me " and then you have to meet the members. I won't take no as an answer."

I looked at him, while batting my eyes " When have i said no before?"

Seonghwa playfully pushed me and took his bags. Walking out the door, i already saw the managers car waiting. Seonghwa put his bags in the trunk, when he was getting into the car, I shouted " Good luck, have fun and i love you."

Seonghwa smiled and sent me a finger heart while i watched him driving away, from the doorway.

My brother knows me well and we have a close relationship. He has told me many times that he doesn't want to leave me alone all the time but i understand that itś his dream and i won't take that away from him. As i said, i can always watch his videos and call him when i miss him.

I went back into the house and took a bottle of water from the fridge. I walked up to my recording room and sat down in front of the mic. Thinking of my brother, i searched up one song that fit my mood for the moment.

"Hi everyone, It's Mi here. " I said while doing the intro. " Today i will sing 'Let Me Be There' by Elaine. I love the song and the feeling this song makes me feel so i tought about singing it myself. I hope you like it"

As i sang i got lost in the feeling and put my emotion in it.

"God, help me to see all the things

I have done that i didn't deserve

in the past

Let me be there"

When the music faded out, all i could hear was my breathing. I sat in the silence for a minute. Then decided to edit the video and post it.

After posting the video of the shadow of me singing, i got alot of positive comments and few negative ones. The response to my videos are usually positive but we all have some haters. I don't let them get to me but thatś also one of the reasons, why i dont want anyone to know about me being the sister of a popular boygroup member. I don't want people to like me because i have a famous brother. If i am going to make it in the music industry, i want it to be because i'm talented and deserve it.

One thing i haven't told my brother is that i have a small crush on one of his members and thatś also the reason why i havent met them yet. I am scared to face him and get rejected. But i guess i need to gather my toughts and courage, so i can finally meet them all face to face.

Luckily i have time until they come back from the tour. As i got up from the computer chair, my phone made a notification sound. I looked and saw that my brother had sent me a video of the members. They were all sleeping, Seonghwa waved to me and wished me goodnight.

I laughed and sent a message wishing him goodnight. After that i went to brush my theeth and change into my pajamas. While i was laying in bed i had a tought about tomorrow and what the day would bring.