Can You See My Heart

The song

Love - A feeling 

Waking up, i saw that i have  an unopened email. The email was from the singing competition. They wanted me to send a audition song as soon as possible. It had to be an acoustic cover of a ballad song of my choice. 

I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to do my morning routine. After getting some breakfast, i sat down in the living room and started writing up some ideas for the song i was going to auditon with. 

Hwa<3

How did you sleep?

Y/N

I slept fine. And hbu?

Hwa<3

I slept ok.

Y/N 

I signed up for the competition... But i need a song. What should i sing?

Hwa<3

Can you please sing Love Message by Sondia     I want to listen to that song when you sing it.

Y/N

Ok i will sing that then 

I went to my recording room, took my guitar and sat down by the wall. As soon as i looked up the song, i could understand why Hwa wanted me  to sing this song. It is an emotion filled song and suits my voice and style well. 

I studied the song and made an audition video. When the video got done, i decided to get some fresh air. I walked down a busy street and found my way towards some people who were busking. Sitting nearby on a bench was a girl. She was dressed in black and wore a mask and a hat. She looked pretty normal, but i could tell she was disguising herself as an ordinary person. I guess i can blame my brother for noticing the difference. 

As i zoned back in to the music, i heard a glass shatter. When i looked where the sound came from, i saw that a guy had pumped into another guy, and the glass bottle he was holding slipped from his hand and ended up spilling the drink all over the mysterious girl on the bench, before breaking into pieces. 

My feet were moving before i could understand the situation. I went and took the girl out of the situatin before more people could notice her being there. 

When we were in an less crowded place, i stopped and gave her my scarf that i carry with me just in case i might need warmth. 

"Here, take this scarf and take off the wet hoodie before you catch cold."

"Why are you helping me?" Asked the girl clearly having her guard up.

"Let's just say that i know that you don't want to be in the spotlight when out in public." I said with a smile. " Plus for me it was obvious that you are a celebrity of some sort. But don't worry i won't use it for my gain. I have a brother who needs to act the same way in public like you right now. So i just wanted to help out. "

" Oh um... thank you." said the girl.

" No worries. Plus you can keep the scarf. " I said while starting to walk away. 

The girl grabbed my hand and asked: " Wait. Don't you want to know who i am?"

"No, not really" I said with a kind smile. "I think itś better for you if i don't know who you are. Have a great day and if we somehow meet again then you can tell me. Bye bye." I waved my hand and walked away.

Getting home took some time because the bus was late. After getting off the bus, i walked into a coffe shop to get one coffee to go. As i was waiting, the background music changed to an Ateez song. I reconized the song after listening to the first lyrics. The song was Not too late.

When i finally got home. I checked ot the audition video once more and sent it on the way.

The filming for the competition starts in an month so the final contestants are reveald soon.

I am nervous but at the same time excited. It can be a good experience and stepping out of my comfort zone can be good for me. I spent the rest of my night reading a book and watching a singing program from tv. At the same time  thinking what the future holds for me.

I was getting tired pretty fast so i didn't notice when i fell asleep. 

Waking up in the morning i got ready for work. The coffee shop was busy as usual and my tables were mostly the regulars. Some boys tried asking for my number, but i turned them down. After all i already had a crush that i wasn't getting over from. But also there was no time for love right now. 

Of course i missed having a relationship and the fun that came along with it, but my career is more importnant as of right now. And i could imagine myself with only one person and sadly i haven't met them yet because i am a coward. My brother calls it being shy but i just don't have what it takes to look him in the eyes. My time will come but until then i will hide behind my shadow.