Tattooed (Miles' POV) BxB

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I sat on my bed after we got home and was staring at my phone. I had Sebastian's contact pulled up and was deciding whether to call or text him. One things for sure, I'm not telling him how I feel, I just can't right now. At least that's what the plan was.

It was late at night and I was starting to think that maybe he was sleep. I stared at my phone hoping that some miracle would come and strike me down but that didn't happen. I opened the messages deciding to send one.

"Hey, you awake?"

I used punctuation. I never use punctuation unless it's serious.

Hey, yea I'm still up. You want to talk about earlier I'm guessing?

"Yea firstly I wanna say that I'm sorry for how I was acting today. I feel like I was being dramatic and I feel bad. Oliver is a nice guy and I want him to know that he didn't upset me in any way shape or form."

This is a bit easier for me to text rather than to say it out loud to Sebastian. I feel like I have a little barrier to protect me from breaking down or getting stumped in my words.

"Secondly you didn't do anything to make me upset or want to avoid you. I could never."

Don't worry about it, I told him he didn't do anything wrong and he understood. What had you so upset though?

"Well its just today I didn't feel good and I had a headache so yea that's it. Sorry."

Miles.....we both know that's a lie. I'm not dumb, come on

"Ok I'll be honest but you don't have to promise but just tell me you won't judge me or anything or like hate me or whatever."

I promise
I could never judge or hate you Miles

Oh goodness my name. It was like honey hearing it but through text it felt the same way.

"I never really had feelings for people in the past because i was really focused on school. But lets speak hypothetically."

Sure

"So lets say that there's this guy that I've known and been talking to him and hanging out with recently and he's really hot and really good looking. I started to form and have a crush on him, then all of a sudden there was someone else and I don't know if they are together or not but like I really like the guy.
Am I being too dramatic if I was to find out that they were dating even though I'm ok with us being just friends or with him not liking me back.
I mean I wouldn't be mad or upset. Maybe a little upset but it's not my place since he doesn't know I like him anyways. I feel like I like him more than I should but he's just a really great guy and he makes me feel different and more alive."

I typed those messages so quickly and they were such big paragraphs that it took him a bit to read them. I then saw the bubbles popping up telling me he was typing. My nerves grew more and more.

Well I feel like you should probably tell the guy how you feel if you're comfortable and be open and honest and ask questions.
If he doesn't answer, which I'm sure he will, then it's ok it happens but when he does answer be sure to listen
As far as you being dramatic or anything, you're really not. Its your first time feeling like this and it clear there's some confusion going on.
Just talk to him and if he rejects you its ok for you to be upset

I sat there reading back his response over and over again. It made me tear up again. Stupid tears just falling whenever. Now I want a hug.

"Thank you Sebastian. I would hug you but clearly cant so lmao."

Same here

I smiled biting my lip. Maybe I'll ask him questions but for now it'll have to wait. I yawned realizing that I was tired.

"Well I'm pretty tired so I'm gonna go to bed now, thanks for letting me rant to you. Goodnight Sebastian, sleep well"

Goodnight Miles, sweet dreams

I put my phone down. I didn't even realize how late I was still up, I hadn't even changed. I go take a shower and then get in my bed resting.

I woke up the next morning stretching my body. I looked at my phone that it was Thursday. "Spring break surely has been going by quickly." I went searching for Athen only to find a note on the fridge.

Going to gym, feel free to join me if you want

Maybe I'll go for a run at the moment, I think it would do my heart and mind justice. I changed and took my keys with me going for a run. I'm not fit but I have good stamina. along my run I hear my name being shouted form across the street.

"Miles!" I turned and saw Evan standing there. I looked at him and the memories from that night came back. "Even..." He crossed the street stopping in front of me. "Miles I want to apologize. Sincerely." He put a hand on his chest.

I stood there listening to him. "I shouldn't have pushed myself on you and I shouldn't have kissed you. After you and that guy left I sat there and thought about what I did and I realized that I was wrong and should helped you to find your friend instead of taking you to my room. I understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore or want to be around me. I just wanted to make sure that I could at least tell you how sorry I am."

I looked at him not saying anything. "Why did you do it?" I asked him staring him dead into his eyes. "I don't know. I was drunk and I've wanted to tell you how I felt but never got the courage to. I guess that's why they call liquor liquid courage." He laughed a little. "Was that the reason you invited me to you invited me to your party in the first place? In hopes that I'd get drunk and you can confess and push yourself on me?"

I wasn't getting mad or upset. I was just asking questions and listening to him. "No, I actually thought that if I invite you that we could talk and maybe get closer. I would've waited but when I saw you dancing and my mind was buzzed and gone all sense left me. Again I'm sorry."

We stood there before I pulled him in for a hug. A small short one, not one that would give him enough time to enjoy it or hug me back. "I don't forgive you completely but I'll accept your apology."

He released a breath I guess he was holding. "Thank you so much Miles", he reached to hug me but I backed away holding a hand up. He stopped in his tracks. "Sorry, well sorry for stopping you on your run, have a good day." We parted ways and eventually I made my way back to my house.

I walked in seeing Athen in the kitchen making some kind of smoothie. "Mimi, there's a party today. I was think we go and you get completely shitfaced except I handcuff you to me so that you can't walk away because I don't know anyone else that will be there." He suggested.

"Absolutely not." I denied. "Fine but either way I want you to drink. Even though you did last time I don't really feel like drinking so I'll DD for you again. This time no running off to a guy's house." He laughed sliding me some of the fruit smoothie in a glass. "Deal."

"Great! 10pm is start time, so get ready around 9:30ish." I nodded finishing and doing the dishes.

Let's just hope that this party goes well.

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OOOO another party. Oh party party yea. Do y'all forgive even completely, half, or not at all? Let me know in the comments.

See you in the next chapter

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