Near x Reader: A Complex Conversation

Chapter 2:

Your POV:

It's been 2 weeks since I stupidly hugged that sweet albino. Currently I was walking into the library, I liked to read, I'm a fairly frequent reader. As I approached the large dusty room, I spotted the one boy I didn't want to see. Near sat in the middle of the library, ever so softly humming to himself as he played with his plastic toys. In that moment my heart halted, my lips quivered. My legs refused to run. He must've felt my odd presence behind him, for he lethargically looked back to lock eyes with my own. My face grew pale. I knew he overheard what I had said about him to the youth. I felt my invisible erection spring. Why do I have mental boners all the time? His glistening lips slowly pushed together to form his words. "Y/n. Unexpected to see you here. I haven't seen you in a while." he coldly stated, rubbing the hard plastic of his toy car. My e/c orbs softened. He seemed vaguely upset. "U-Uh, W-Well, I-" I stuttered. "Have you been avoiding me? What ever did I do?" It was so odd how blankly his voice could be. "N-No, it's just that-t.." I tried to explain. Near raised an eyebrow. My heart fluttered. If I had been overflowing with confidence, I would've kissed him. I drew in a deep breath. I had to admit to him. "I have been avoiding you, because I know I make you uncomfortable. I know that I'm unpleasant and I was in no place to make physical contact without your consent. Not to mention the vulgar things I spoke about you." the last part came out as a mumble and I averted my gaze to the ground. My face grew beet red. "You make me..uncomfortable..?" Near questioned. "y-yes.." I hesitantly answered. He bit his lip. My internal boner rose. God, why does he have to be so sexy? "I don't recall you making me uncomfortable. I just so happen to enjoy your presence as much as anybody else." His straight forward words made my heart sink. He thought of me like anybody. I drew a breath in and exited the library. I'm done talking to him. I don't want to talk to him. He's too oblivious. My heart kept breaking even though it was already in microscopic pieces. "As much as anybody else." the words repeated back and forth. I already knew I wasn't special to him, but to hear him say it in his own beautiful voice, the voice I learned savor hearing, was absolutely soul crushing. Damn you Near. Damn you.