Chaos

One.

"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but It's very important that you do it because you can't know. you can't ever really know the meaning of your life. And you don't need to. Every life has a meaning whether it lasts one hundred years or one hundred seconds." Ghandi.

My life took a huge leap of events, okay I know this may sound cliché, but I really thought that I got my life planned out.

Graduate high-school? Check.
Go to my dream university? On hold.
Find the love of my life? On hold.
Start my own career? Impossible to achieve at the moment.

So I guess I never achieved any of my goals. Graduating from high-school was only a matter of time and I thankfully graduated on time with an average GPA or whatever you may call a percentage of 89.9%.

Let me run-over my goals one by one; here it goes.

Go to my dream university. I truly thought i had it figured out, I got my letter of acceptance, planned out my living situation and bought all the puffy, wintery clothes that I have always dreamt of wearing since Florida is way too humid and hot for such clothing. But, one and only one thing stood in my way to achieving this dream and you may be shocked to the core when you read this;

Freaking student visa.

That's correct, my visa got rejected. Hilarious, right? Yeah, I thought so too.

So I took it upon myself and started searching for other universities in my city. Since my parents are too scared to send me to a country where I don't have family in, I decided that I'm going to be staying with them and find a suitable university. At this point, I really didn't care about the university as much as I cared about the major I'll be studying.

I forgot to tell you, I wanted to be a psychologist.

But funny enough, my parents decided that they wanted to visit both their parents back in their home country. Yes I'm an immigrant, but I'm leaving the details for you to figure out.

And they had the audacity to go behind my back and apply for universities in my home country for me to study in. You thought I was joking? Heck no. Hear me out.

They applied to two universities and I got accepted in one of them but shockingly enough, they did not apply for psychology. You must be wondering why, I'll explain.

My dad had a dream, it was for one of his daughters to study pharmacy, what a dream, I know. But he thought that pharmacy is going to guarantee us a future with no financial issues, study five years, graduate, open your own pharmacy and live happily ever after. And since he has three kids, and I'm the eldest, he thought he could make his dreams come true through me, since my sister was a lost case anyway and he knew he could never convince her to do such thing, and my brother is still 11 years old, so he doesn't even know what university is. Crazy I know.

But I have always had a soft spot for my dad. He wasn't just my father, he was my best friend and he knew I'd do anything just to see him smile.

Since non of the universities I applied for in my city had a course of psychology, I also took it upon myself and decided to go with pharmacy.

And when the day came, my parents and I had a sit down talk, and my dad confessed one thing. He didn't have enough money for me to spend on a university in my city. Remember, immigrants?

But at that time I understood where he is coming from, he still has both of my siblings to pay for their studies, a house to pay the rent for, and family back in my home country to help financially.

So I didn't complain, I decided to go to my home country and study pharmacy while living with my grandmother from my mom's side. What a huge turn of events.

Miserable, in my home country that I haven't visited in over ten years, living with my grandma and having to deal with cruel cousins. Building my life again from scratch and getting to know new people, new friends, in new country. The list never ends.

About my love life? Talk about two failed relationships, and a best friend that I'm falling head over heels for. Oh, i failed to mention, a best friend who is in a relationship that i fell head over heels for.

Now that sounds right.

So here is when my story begins

I am Mia, Mia Rosalie Farouq. Right now, i am 21 years old, currently in my third year in pharmacy. Extremely extroverted with a bubbly, hyperactive personality. And this is my story that hopefully ends with a happy ending.

I never doubted the fact that God has a plan

I'm a believer, and I believe in God and his wonders, but I never anticipated what happened to me, I never saw it coming.

I truly believe that each and every human being on this earth will be tested someday. God tests his humans, he tests their strength, their faith, and their patience.

Heck I never knew that I could be this patient, I'm known for being impatient.

I want to pass through this, I want to get out of this darkness and find my way back to life. I want to achieve my dreams and find myself again, because I lost myself a long time ago. I want to live a happy life and make my parents proud of me. I don't want to leave this life without achieving at least one percent of what I dreamt of.

But for now, my life is full of chaos.