مصعب POV
I opened the door and saw him, my father. "Hello" I faked a smile. He looked at me up and down judging and said "what kind of haircut is that. If I didn't know you better I would say that you're a boy" will.. you don't know me better and let's hope it stays like that. Also.. I'm taking that as a compliment
"It's what people like these days" I wasn't lying actually a lot of people like this haircut. I stepped back so he enters the house. We headed to the living room and sat on the couch. He kept looking at me like he is trying to figure something and this made me uncomfortable so I offered to turn the tv
it was on a sport news channel and then it hit me. What if I appeared on it and dad find out that I'm trans? I'm not really popular because I'm on the start of my career but better to be careful So I changed the channel
If I remember correctly he doesn't like sports so he didn't bother me to return to the sports channel. "How are you?" I asked to break the uncomfortable silence. He kept looking at me and didn't respond
"When are you going to say it?" He asked. I gave him a confused look. "You think that I don't fucking know that you are acting like a fucking boy?" I got scared that I couldn't move "w-what". "I HOPE that you are "acting" like a boy. HELL YOU ARE BELIEVING THAT"
no. No no no no no no this can't be happening. "I-". "shut the FUCK up. You disgusting piece of shit. And your mom know that don't she? Don't tell me she fucking support you. I know why I divorced her now" I was crying but I managed to see his hand up in the air. He wants to hit me. I closed my eyes and...
I felt something harsh landed on my cheek ( that's his father so I can't say funny stuff😒 ) he then pushed me on the ground and started hitting and kicking me and I'm pretty sure there is going to be some bruises
He was swearing at me and hitting me and this really broke me but I tried so hard to push him and left the house. I don't really know where to go since I didn't get my car with me and سعود house is far from mine.
I remembered that جيوفينكو invited us some months ago to a party at his house and it's near mine so I decided to go to him
I rang the doorbell and after some 2 minutes he opened the door looking sleepy. "Hi? do I know you?" he didn't focus on me to actually know me plus I was wearing "girly" clothes
"I- umm.. it's me مصعب can I get in..?". "Huh?? Oh yeah sure are you okay? Shit did someone hurt you?" He looked worried but I didn't say anything. I was too tired
He led me to the couch and disappeared for a moment and came back with a glass of water "thank you" he nodded and kept looking at me waiting for me to talk
"Sorry I'm tired can I sleep? I will tell you everything in the morning". "Of course. Yeah. Sleep at the gusset room it will be more comfortable for you". "Thank you. Can you.. can you call سعود and tell him everything? And if it's not a trouble for you can he stay? I need to talk to him". "Yeah of course. If you need anything else just tell me okay?" I smiled and nodded
I went to the gusset room and started sleeping. I'm going to worry about everything later. I'm way to tired now
*six hours later*
I woke up to find a sleeping سعود on the chair next to me. His head was on the bed. I smiled and ruffled his hair. I accidentally woke him up though. He got up so fast and hugged me
"Are you alright? Huh no of course you're not. I'm sorry I shouldn't have left you. Fuck I'm going to kill him. Oh right. here" he went to his bag and pulled out a binder. "I figured that you want one right now because I'm sure you left the other at your house. So I took the one you left at my house for emergency" he chuckled but he still looks worried
"Thank you. I'm alright really. You already said that.. he wasn't a part of my life and he will never be. So I don't care about what he thinks because it's not true" what I said was half real. The real part it that he is never going to be part of my life. And the other one... will.. it hurts a little but I expected that. Plus him being away from me all that time really helped me to not be very sad about what he did
"Does جيوفينكو know about you being transgender? I don't remember you telling him" سعود asked. "Oh جيوفينكو.. I forgot about him shit. umm.. His house was the closest to me so I went there because I was tired. And I told him that I'm going to tell him everything when I wake up. Is he still there? He deserves an explanation. But what if he's transphobic? No this can't be true he helped me. Right?"
"No he is not transphobic. He was sick worried about you but I didn't say anything because it's not my place to say stuff. However, if you're not comfortable talking about it I'm sure he will understand. He's a nice a guy".
"No it's alright I want to tell him. I will go to the bathroom can you call for him? I will explain everything to both of you when I finish" سعود nodded and gave me a bag full of any stuff that I may need and I got to the bathroom
When I entered the first thing I looked at was the mirror. And oh the horror.. my makeup was ruined because I was crying and I slept with it. I tried to wash it as much as I can with only water because that was the only thing that can remove makeup in the bathroom. It's understandable why would جيوفينكو put makeup remover in the bathroom. It's not necessary
I took the bag that سعود gave me and I suppose it have some clean clothes for me. And I was right. There was literally everything. Clothes. Binder. Makeup remover. A hair brush. Some pills. A gum??. Twix, which is my favorite candy ( التويكس خلاني traumatized بس ماعرفت وش احط غيره ) and some bandages
I smiled and used the makeup remover. Then wore my binder and clothes and left the bathroom. جيوفينكو and سعود are at the room. I could tell جيوفينكو was hesitated to hug me which is nice. I smiled "you can" then he hugged me tightly "are you alright now?" He asked then he turned and brought a tray Full of food "here. Late Breakfast" he gave me a big smile
I laughed "you are such a grandma. But thank you". "Heyy" he faked a frown. "سعود eat with me. All this food can stop the hunger from the world" they both laughed and we ate in a comfortable silence
We finished eating but جيوفينكو still didn't ask anything. I guessed that's because he doesn't want to make me uncomfortable so I started "alright.. I'm going to say everything from the start which سعود know all of it but yeah"
AN
ااااخخخيييرررااا لي اسبوع وانا اكتب هذا التشابتر مين عطاني عين الله يسامحكم
١٢٨٠ كلمه
