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Chapter Six

I had gone from feeling so calm from seeing him from the first time to feeling utterly crushed. I had no idea how to cope with this feeling that was now pouring away from me, and it took everything in me to stop my eyes from pricking in the tears to come. Every single thing in my body, hurt. Even my bones.

And my wolf, pulled away from me. She hid into my subconscious, not wanting to feel the pain I was going through. Didn't blame her in the slightest, she was hurting too.

The man and I were just staring at one another, nobody was moving. His eyes never changed, even when his touch left my skin. Such a captivating gaze.

I watched as his future Gamma was looking at his Alpha walking out of the club. He turned to look at me once with softer eyes than I expected, before they all followed.

I couldn't move. I don't think I had ever felt so... unworthy.

The amount of despair I felt, was indescribable. I needed to leave, I couldn't break down in front these humans. My legs were shaking as I began jogging out of the nightclub and I heard Jimin calling after me as I used my shoulders to get through the crowd.

I could still sense my mate. They had all shifted only moments ago behind the nightclub, going back towards their territory. I went the opposite way, nearly tripping over in my boots.

With anger, I ripped them off and just threw them into the road.

"El, please, stop!" Jimin called after me.

I could hear Hobi and JK talking to him, telling him to let me go.

"I can't just let her go" Jimin shouted, and I heard him push somebody off from him, which was probably JK from the grunt I heard.

I sucked in a quick breath, feeling my wolf coming back to me as I pulled at her, I needed to shift. I wanted to run. Run away from this feeling.

"Elowen!" The sharp change of voice from Jimin, made my wolf yelp. That was a voice that made me quickly still, and turn to face him.

"Jimin please don't pull rank on me, don't make me stay. Let me go" I whispered, knowing he could hear me.

We just looked at each other for a few moments, before he slowly nodded his head. A few tears ran down my cheek from spilling out of my eyes as I let out a long breath.

I ran around the side of the nearest building, letting my wolf expand out and it comforted me that I didn't feel an ounce of physical pain, and she tried to comfort me as much as she could. She pulled me along in her journey as she ran, but I could feel on how hurt she was also.

Rest. Grieve.

She pulled back her head and howled, and I let her go through it. I knew my Pack members would hear this howl, and I hoped none of them came running.

After four hours, I still let my wolf have control but guided her home slowly. When I was nearly home, I heard the howls drift through the air, patrol was on watch nearly finishing. I also heard my Dad's howl, leading the start and finish of it. My wolf knew that howl, even if I didn't.

I shifted back once I got close to the back garden, and then knelt on the ground for a few minutes.

Was I not good enough?

Granted, I know that man was the next Alpha in line to the Maine Pack. The Pack we had a war with, the Pack that killed my Mum and our Luna. But he was my mate.

Was being the key word.

I couldn't forgive that, and I never would, but there was a part of me that would allow me to go past that point, because of the fact that he was my mate. I literally didn't have a choice.