My heart is a prey

Even if you are my world, all I have are words

I've spent months trying to understand what I saw in your eyes

They always say yes and no at the same time — how can I tell when it's lies?

It took me weeks to figure out what I want

and seconds to understand I'll never have it

I wanted you to be my favorite confidant

You split my heart, but didn't care as long as your hand stayed on my tit

I've spent hours naming my demons

I've spent years trying to forget your name

I've spent nights feeling an ocean of emotions when you felt none

I'll spend eternity trying to wash away the shame

You don't have the softest skin,

So why do I want to touch you so bad?

You're not the best kisser,

So why do I want to feel your lips against mine?

You have short arms,

So why do I need them to feel protected?

You snore so loud,

So why do I always sleep next to you?

You're not here when I need it,

So why is it your name I call when I bleed?

Your tattoos are not the sexier,

So why do I want to kiss each one of them?

You won't fall in love and care deeply about someone like me,

So why do I keep running after you like I was hypnotized or doped?

If you are not everything I had hoped

Why are you still in my dreams?

I tried to save you even when we were in different teams

You became friends with people you wanted to protect me from

You only care about what it seems

How dare you become someone I have to protect myself from?

Got so bad, some friends saw me cry; I even talked about you to my mom

The pain became so unbearable, that for a while, I had turn my heart numb

You always sought validation from the world, even when you had my love

Make me pray again

Let's play pretend once again

Our love's a game,

Our life's a play,

My heart's a prey