Love On Tour (Book 2)

Believe Me

(Jamie's POV)

Sam and I have spent the last few hours practising our own solo songs, and Jimmy's been in the back with his drums, doing some free-styling. I haven't heard anything from Roland or y/n, so I'm assuming it's going well, but I need Roland back just so we can run through a could of new songs with the bass.

Hey babe, any chance you're nearly done with your tour? We could really use Roland at the moment x

Her response is almost instantaneous.

I'm actually already in a taxi. Roland stayed out longer but I wanted to come back and see you x

Everything okay? x

Yeah, I just miss you x

My heart melts. I'm glad she's getting along with the guys, though it is a bit strange that she left Roland on his own. So I text him to check he's all good.

Hey man, hope everything went well. Could you get to the studio ASAP we need you to run through some songs.

No problem J. Be back as soon as I can, and we need to talk later.

I cock an eyebrow. He isn't usually so serious, so maybe things didn't go as well as I'd hoped. I'm still thinking about it when I get another text come through.

Babe, I just got to the hotel, I think Julie and I are gonna take the evening to ourselves if that's okay, we're both knackered XD x

I sigh. Sometimes I forget how much this all affects other people; me and the guys are used to this but it's a lot to adjust to.

No problem sweetheart, go crazy on room service ;) love you x

Love you too x

(Y/n's POV)

I knock gingerly on Julie's door.

"Come in," she calls.

I push open the door and see her sitting on the edge of her bed, hair slightly dishevelled and bags under her eyes.

"Hey, sorry. I hope I didn't wake you up?"

"Not at all," she says, but I can tell she's lying. "Everything alright dear?"

"Yes. No. I don't know."

"Sit down," she pats the space next to her. "What's on your mind?"

"Okay well, first of all, I told Jamie we'd miss the show tonight so we can take the evening to ourselves. And as soon as I shut up we can order room service, put on a movie, sleep, whatever you want to do."

"Spit it out my lovely," she chuckles.

I pause for a moment.

"It's Roland."

"Oh yes! Did you enjoy your tour?"

"Yeah, the places were all great. Roland.... not so much."

"Did he say something? He's always been a cheeky lad, he doesn't mean any harm."

"He did say something. Well, a few things. But he did something too. He tried to kiss me."

"What?" she looks genuinely shocked.

"We just had lunch at his friend's restaurant, we'd been talking quite a lot about me and Jamie. I told him that we were working through stuff, but we still love each other. We got outside, I was actually just replying to a text from Jamie, and the next thing I knew he was leaning in to give me a kiss."

"And did he?"

"No! I dodged right out of the way."

She thinks for a moment.

"Are you absolutely sure? I've known Roland for years and, sure he's a flirty boy, but he'd never make a move on you if you are with Jamie. They've been close friends since before the band even got together."

"Of course I'm sure. And I made it completely obvious that we're still together."

"It just... it doesn't sound like Roland. He's just not like that."

"Don't you believe me?" I'm a little shocked and hurt that she'd think I'm lying about something like this.

She lets out a sigh. "We've been traipsing across the globe, we're all exhausted, you could have easily misinterpreted it. Maybe he was going to kiss your cheek."

"You don't believe me," I say.

"Of course I believe you, I'm just saying maybe it wasn't what it seemed."

I don't respond.

"Just for goodness sake, don't say anything to Jamie before you've spoken to Roland."

"Julie, I don't want to speak to Roland. I don't want to be left alone with him."

"Why don't you sleep on it, and try talking to him tomorrow after you've calmed down."

I blink and stand up.

"Right. Well I think I'll go back to my room."

"Y/n you don't have to lea-"

"No you're right," I lie. "I should sleep on it, maybe it'll be clearer in the morning. Good night Julie."

She sighs and flops back on the bed as I leave the room.

Rather than going to sleep, I take a shower and try to scrub off the feeling of Roland on my skin. I stay in there for about an hour, and for most of it I just stand and watch as soap suds circle the drain before disappearing.

Unsure of what else to do, I crawl into bed and flick through the channels on TV. It's early November, but there's already Christmas movies on, so I put on Home Alone, only half watching as I try and figure out what I'm going to do.

I want to tell Jamie. I need to tell Jamie. But if Julie doesn't believe me, will he? And who's to say whether or not Roland will deny it?

I think back over what Julie said. Could I have misinterpreted it? After it happened, I walked away as fast as I could because I didn't want to be near him, but it also means that I didn't get to clarify if it was a lip or cheek kiss. Then again, he was winking at me and trying to hold my hand all day. There's a difference between casual flirting and making a move on someone.

I'm sure he was making a move on me, I just don't know how Jamie will deal with it.

So I won't tell him. Not yet anyway. If I tell him now, it'll tear the band apart and it will be the end of the tour. I can't do that to him, or to Sam for that matter. I'll tell him when it's over. And I think I need to cool down before I speak to Julie again.

Why can't love be easy for me?

I'm about to turn off the movie when I get a text come through.

Y/n, I'm so sorry it took me so long to get back to you, I've been trying to find the right words to say. I'm truly sorry for the things I said all those years ago and, even though he won't admit it, I know your father is too. I'll gladly accept your olive branch, we've gone too long without making amends, so I'd like to see you so we can talk in person. I've seen on the news that you're on tour with the band, we're actually in Florida at the moment. So if you get the chance, it would be great to see you.

Mum x