+*+* Chaos Is Beautiful +*+*

Hi There. I'm Tubbo

Disheveled. That's what I am currently.

Hi. I'm Tubbo. Here's a few things about me.

1. I love English. Words are like water to me. I have excellent vocabulary.

2. Music is in my blood 

3. My thoughts

Now you may be wondering. 'What do you mean your thoughts ?' Well, you try and survive almost 14 years of life having no one but yourself. You're bound to go crazy too.

My thoughts were my only companions. So was my dictionary. Her dictionary. I had studied the full thing. All those confusing words like domicile, serenity, zeitgeist. (Yes, that's a word.)

I don't have a favorite word yet though. Not yet. One day I will choose.

Words came to me like music came through my fingers. I could play 7, yes 7, different instruments.

People also said I had a pretty good voice but I did not believe them. My voice was average. One of the only normal things in my life was music. I actually had a YouTube channel. It's called 'Cherry blossom'. I had uploaded a few songs.

Obviously, the response was small. But people liked it. Though that's one of the only things that make my life normal it's still something you know.

Now there's another thing. Currently I'm 21 not 14. Well, that's cause at 14 something happened to me.

Actually, a lot of things have happened to me but let's stick to the present topic, shall we?

So, at 14 I met my only friend. Tommy. We've been friends ever since and still are. He was there when everything went downhill for me.

And that brings me to my situation now. I woke up around 8am today. Next to a blonde. Shirtless.

I sighed. This is my situation. Wait, actually this is my constant situation.

So, to sum it up quickly (Because I DO NOT like talking about this) a bunch of bad things came and it summed up to me being depressed. So, almost every night I go out. Partying, to the club, to the bar. Found some desperate girl, or the occasional guy, and did what happened.

Now my life was -Sleep with em. Get up. Get out and back home before Tommy realizes I'm gone.

My life right now is pathetic. No wretched.

No even better depressing.

Did I mention I love words?

Soooo

At the moment my objective was to get home before 8:30. That's because that's the time Tommy checks up on me and if he finds out that I went out yesterday night he's gonna annihilate me.

I got out of the house I slept in. The cool October breeze sliced down my face like a knife.

I took out my phone and checked the time.

8:14am

Oh no. 

I had no idea where I was in the first place and I only had 15 minutes to get home. 

Well, I'm practically dead already so why don't I tell you how my best friend Tommy and I met?