I am her DOPPELGANGER (Trans story)

CHAPTER 1

Rain's POV

I always hear people saying that you should not hurry to find love. Because love comes around unexpectedly, but here I am still praying to God, na kung may darating ay malugod kong tatanggapin. Dahil Lord, I have been waiting for that person up until now. Or tatanda na talaga akong dalaga? Please give me heads up.

It has been 5 years simula ng mawala ako sa kalendaryo. Kapansin-pansin na din ang pag-dagdag ng edad ko. Minsan ay naiisip kong maaring tama sila, na ang mga katulad ko ay may maliit lamang na tiyansa upang makahanap ng tunay na pag-ibig.

I did enter relationships, but it all goes down to nothing. No regrets dahil hindi nila ako deserve. So yeah, I know my worth, and I know I am worthy.

My first boyfriend was way back in college; we lasted for three years until seeing him banging another woman in his condo. The second one was when I was 22 years old, we lasted for a year, but he ended up getting another woman pregnant. The third and last one was a 5-year-old relationship with a guy I met at work; we were everything not until he got multiple addictions that made him locked up in a mental hospital; until now, he became abusive and ended up hurting me physically, mentally and emotionally.

Am I a virgin? Hell no! I wouldn't come this far being a virgin. Who would, right? Kidding, but seriously, I am not anymore. My body count is three, and obviously, my first boyfriend took my virginity.

Am I still open for a relationship? Well, yes! Kahit na paulit-ulit akong nasaktan at sinaktan, I still believe in love. Pero nakakapagod din palang mag hintay. Finding and searching for true love is indeed a pain in the ass lalo na kapag part ka ng LGBT community. I am a trans. A post-op transgender. I had already completed my gender reassignment surgery to complete my gender identity as a transwoman.

I had my gender reassignment when I was 25 years old after having enough money for my operation. My family is somehow well off, but we are not part of the old wealthy families here in the Philippines. We are not like the Sy, Cojuangco, Ayala, Tan, Villar, and etc. We are just in the middle.

And going back to the topic, which is my love life, my parents arrange a blind date for me AGAIN tonight. Not that I am complaining pero parang ganon na nga. I always go to each blind dates na sineset-up ng mga magulang ko para sa akin but I it always ended up me meeting new "friends". Sobrang dami na ng kaibigan ko at ayoko na silang dagdagan pa. That's what I always tell my parents, but they told me na last blind date na ito.

At kapag pumunta ako, ay hahayaan na nila akong mag-hanap para sa sarili ko. And so, I agreed.

Kaya ngayon ay pinaparada ko na nag sasakyan ko sa tapat ng isang kilalang restaurant. Bago bumaba ay tiningnan ko pa ang make up ko. I put my maroon lipstick and sweetly pout at the mirror.

"So pretty." I compliment myself.

Inayos ko ang dress na suot ko at inilagay sa kaliwang kamay ko ang hand bag ko. I am wearing a simple emerald green dress na niregalo pa sa akin ng Mama para sa gabing ito. Not that I am waiting for this day to meet that guy but rather waiting for this day to end this blind dates kuno of my parents. Satingin ko kasi hindi na siya bagay sa edad ko.

'Good luck, Rain. Sana magustuhan mo ang blind date mo, beh!'- Trisha.

Kaagad kong na basa ang text mula sa aking kaibigan. Trisha is my best friend simula palang high school kami. She already has her own family at alam niya ang lahat ng pinag-daanan ko. Trisha is a transgender as well but unlike me, Trisha has a family, a husband and a child. Nakakainggit pero I am happy for her. Naiingit lang ako sa idea na he found his man already. A person who accepts and loves her fully.

"Rain Vasquez, Miss." Saad ko sa receptionist ng restaurant. Kaagad naman niya akong sinamahan patungo sa isang table sa hindi kalayuran. The place has few couples who had their dates in here. Hindi ko na lang sila tiningnan isa-isa dahil baka mainggit lang ako.