Lost thoughts

DROP

If I were

To drop the faquede

Of untruthful happiness

I wonder what would be

Underneath

Would I be full of life

Or just an empty shell

Would I still move

With a clumsy forgetfulness

Only ever half here

Or would I be gone completely

My head stuck in the thunder clouds

With no rope to pull me back down

And never see the real world

Except for in my nightmarish dreams

They crawl through my thought

And try to take hold

But I am resilient even if it is only for so long

Would things rush past me

Like a river's rapids

Or will it stop completely

Suspended forever

Trying to figure out one moment

In a thousand moments

But either way I will hope to rest

Even if it is only for a minute

And think of all the things

I know to think of

Even if they don't satisfying