steve randle's kid sister?!

Chapter four~denial

It's been a month since Dallas's passing and two since johnny passed on.I still didn't wanna believe they where gone.I was sitting with everyone at the Curtis house including my brother.Everyone excepted dal's and Johnny's death's,but I couldn't.Something wouldn't let me.Soda came out of the shower and sat next to me turning the tv on.
"hey two-bit."he said.
"Yeah soda?"he asked peeking his head in form the kitchen.
"Mickey's on tv!"soda said with a grin.
"Ok!"two said coming in sitting down in front of the couch I kept staring at the door.I kept hoping johnny and Dallas, would walk through the door.I knew they weren't I kept giving myself false hope for nothing.Soda met my gaze and realized how bad off I was.He put his hand on my right shower.
"Jamie you gotta except their gone their not coming home kiddo."He said softly.At this point two-bit stopped watching Mickey and turned to me.Darry my brother pone soda everyone was looking at me now.
"Honey.."Darry said.
"I don't need your damn pity!"I screamed at him.
"Jamie they are dead they're not coming home stop doing this to yourself."two-bit blurted then Staring again.
"We all wish they where here but you can't keeping going around giving yourself faults hoping that their alive and their just around the corner or hiding or their gonna walk in the door their gone you have to face it kiddo."He said.
"I KNOW OK!"I blurted at them out of anger.
"Jamie they're right."My brother said.
"You gotta move on"ponyboy said.
"Shut up all of you!"I said before running out of the door and down the street.As I ran i could hear the boys yelling my name to come back to the house.I didn't stop though despite their words.I couldn't I wouldn't face they're deaths not yet.I kept running like my ass was one fire, till the boys where out of ear shot and I was out of view.I finally stopped when I bumped into someone.I looked up and it was curly shepard my boyfriend and tim Shepard's girlfriend blu Mathews.Curly bent down and wiped my blood shot eyes and kisses my head gingerly.I started to cry again.
He picked me up and help me close against his chest.I just couldn't keep the tears from flowing anymore.Curly stroked the back of my hair, blu rubbed my back not sure what to say or do.Curly took a small breath and started to talk.
"Honey I know your hurt you have every right to be, but please don't drown yourself in this mess or shut yourself away from people."He said trying to comfort me.
"W-whatever."I said through sobs.
"Good."He Said.He looked towards blu with a look of desperation on what to say next.But either of them couldn't think of anything to say.They where at a loss for words.They where close to johnny and Dallas like I was.But not as close as I was to them.curly kept his arms around me in a bear hug before turning to blu.
he motioned towards their house and started to say something.
"Go get those envelopes off my dresser."he demanded to her.
"Okay!"she said running off to the shepard house hold.Curly stayed with me to comfort me.It was probably 10-15 minutes before blu got back with the envelopes in hand.
"Here."she said handing them to curly.
"Thanks."he said plainly and taking his arms from around me.
"I was told to give these to you after you got better but I think you need them now."he said lifting my face up and kissing me gingerly.
"Who are they from."I questioned him.
"Read em and find out"he said.I cocked my eye brow at him with a questioning look.
He  just smiled at me like he didn't just do that.
I started to open the first letter and started to read.