. My Spot .

[20-19]

It's been 2 weeks since Christian and I broke up and honestly I'm pissed at him for pretending that nothing happened between us

I'm a sophisticated woman who loves men with issues, unfortunately, it's not good for my mental health.

Christian texted me so much the same week we broke up that you would think he would look my way but no he doesn't even greet me in class

part of me wants him to say one thing to me but it's like he's completely moved on, Christian and I didn't date for long but we had a bond together whether we were dating or if we were just friends at the moment. I sadly miss him, a lot.

His hair has grown out a little, he no longer has an undercut it's almost as if he just stopped caring for his hair. When I walk past him I get a slight whiff of his cologne and I miss that scent so much

If I didn't have interviews and different brands hitting up my phone every day I would fold so hard you wouldn't even be able to see me anymore. I'm glad I'm busy with something other than worrying about him

I don't love Christian, to be honest, I don't even believe in love it's all fake in my opinion. No matter how much you love someone they'll still do you wrong or you'll do them wrong, that right there isn't love.

Maybe I overreacted when finding out about Christian and his former student. Maybe I was jealous that I wasn't the first student he's ever done this with. I can understand why he cared so much for his career after he confessed to me, he didn't want history to repeat itself

I can say that I was truly just thinking about myself in that situation, I probably triggered something and I wouldn't have known. That's the thing about me, I overthink so much that my actions don't even make sense

But then again he really should've just told me because what if his fans found out we were dating, would he have left? would he have done the same thing he'd done to his former student? these are things we need to be prepared for

I blamed him too much, we both rushed into the relationship too fast that we didn't even talk about what we would do if the media found out and when and how we would tell the media

This wasn't even about Christian and his former student anymore it was about me overthinking and running away. As I said, I know how to disappear and that's what I did, I hid instead of addressing the issue and asking Christian about it

I just assumed it was true, it could've been a whole lie and yet I accused him. I'm in the wrong and I can accept that.

"Mila, bring me your stitching please" This is the first time he's called my name in 2 weeks, I shouldn't be this happy

I stood from my seat and walked to his desk, his eyes met mine then traveled to my stitching. He can't even hold eye contact with me...

"Good, this is the kind of stitching I should see from now on, good job Ms. Brown" He handed me the stitching back and his hand brushed against mine

"Mila, I do need to speak with you after class about the work you've missed," He said "Yes, Mr. Chavez," I said and went back to my seat

I don't know if he's only going to be talking about the missing work or us, I hope the latter.
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The class was soon dismissed and while everyone packed their things and left, I stayed in my seat

"Mila come here please" He pulled up a chair next to him, I took in a deep breath and got up to sit beside him

"I'm not missing much am I?" I asked "You're actually not missing anything but I wanted to talk to you about what happened 2 weeks ago and you were right, I wasn't thinking and I shouldn't have started things with you," He said

I started to say something but he just shook his head at me

"I shouldn't have started anything with you but I did and I don't regret doing so, Mila I miss you so damn much that it fucking hurts, you have every right to be mad at me and I should've told you about her but I didn't because I never thought you would find out and that's my fault" He placed his hand on top of mine

"I should've owned up to my responsibilities but I didn't and that's my fault, everything is 100% my fault so all I'm asking is for a second chance to make things right, I won't stop asking for a second chance until you say yes," He said

"So you're going to court me?" I asked "As long as I get you back, yes" He brought my hand up to his lips and kissed it

"Christian, I do want you back because I've realized that I can't function or even think if you're not around, you're a fucking hassle and it makes my life so much better and I'm bored without you. I cried and screamed for your name and for you to just look my way and at first, I thought we were done for real, I thought I really pushed you away" I said

Christian chuckled "I wanted to make sure I made you feel comfortable around me"

"You were making me uncomfortable with all this lack of attention, don't let it happen again," I said "Who are you to be scolding me?" He raised an eyebrow "Your girlfriend that's who I am" I said

"I almost went through withdrawal, Mila" He placed a hand over his heart "Aww how sad, did you need to be admitted?" I asked, he nodded

I started to laugh "I missed you, I missed your laugh, your smile, your voice, I knew I was going to get you back," He said

"Who helped you realize that you were wrong?" I asked "Donyae, he was the first person I went to, I needed you back and after lots of begging and bribing I got his help," He said

"What exactly did he help you with?" I raised an eyebrow "That's classified, let's just forget that ever happened" His lips brushed against mine and I pulled back

"Christian we're still at the school," I said "I don't mind letting everyone know that you're mine, forever" He smashed his lips onto mine and our lips moved in sync

I've always liked slow kissing more than rushed kissing because I can feel the need in every kiss, and I can definitely taste the need from Christian. He's longed for this and so have I

This is my spot, this is where I belong
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A/n: here's an extension i think the book is actually done now 🥹 i'm lowkey sad, i had so much fun writing this