Sunflower

2

After all that a few months had rolled by, and before we knew it we'd already started college. The semester started a month or two ago now and we've all settled down nicely, I think. I don't know what ticked him off so much, but Haechan and I really haven't spoke since that day in June. I know we argued, but we were like that all the time.

What was different this time? To be honest I didn't think it was a big a deal as he ended up reacting, I guess I should have put my pride aside that time. I mean I guess what I said was a little harsh, but still. He acts hot then cold, then hot, and the cycle repeats. I guess I'm no better though. I shouldn't care so much in the first place, what good'll that do me anyway?

"Hey uh, Sun?"

Startled out of my thoughts I look around me and settle my gaze on a familiar set of brown eyes. "Mark?! I didn't know you went here?"

"Uh, yea. Kinda funny seeing you here, but if you saw in the class email we're actually partners." He scratched the back of his neck.

"Oh! I'm sorry I haven't checked yet!" now I'm the awkward one.

"It's fine, I was just wondering, do you still have my number or do I need to give it to you again?"

"I still have it, if you didn't change it recently or anything."

"Cool then I'll see you around? Message me when you get the chance!" With that he walked off to do who knows what. He's a lot more cheery than the last time we spoke, to be honest I'm kinda surprised he'd want to talk to me at all.

Seeing as class ended and I'm still just sitting here I should probably leave now. I don't have any more classes though.. what to do. I could text Lila? She's with Clover too.. Nah I saw them earlier, maybe I'll just walk around by myself for awhile.

Despite going here for a couple months already I haven't really explored the campus much. I don't do a lot of going out so I don't usually have a reason to leave my home. There's big, open windows decorating the hallways and I love the way the sun shines through them. I'm glad it doesn't get cold around here often. I grew up in a pretty gloomy area, and the weather was never predictable. I gotta say I really prefer it out here, I don't know what it is but this place feels different.

I'm feeling a little hungry... I don't think I ate breakfast yet. I go to check the time, "10:54." Hmm, I mean it's basically time for lunch so I'll just do that I guess. But I don't know what to eat, like always. This is more difficult than it should be.

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I wonder when I'll meet my mate.

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Ugh, there's no use worrying about that. I'm just gonna order tacos.

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"Look you don't know what you're talking about."

"And I think you look like a close relative of the common rat. You can't keep lying to me."

"Mind your business, and stay out of mine." The man harshly spat and started to walk off.

"You're only making things worse for yourself!" The other man shouted, he was becoming very frustrated. Doesn't he understand what this will do to his future?

The other man flipped him off and continued to walk away, promptly ignoring everything the other was saying. He listens to no one, and will continue to do whatever he wants. They don't understand him, even though he's explained it just fine. What do they know?

Even I don't know what to do with myself. I like one thing then the next, it's impossible to consume the same thing over and over again. It feels like poison being shoved down your throat. It's not that I don't like things, i could love it very much but still, the result would be the same. That's just life though, there is nothing you can do to stop reality from being what it is.

You can't change others, only yourself. Of course, I can't even do that right either.