Dearly Detested

Chapter 5

From a young age, I've dealt with bad anxiety. As a princess, I've always had to get in front of the crowds and put on a persona to please the kingdom. But behind this mask, was a scared little girl. The world is a bad place, and I always feared the worst would happen. As I walk the street in line for the castle, my hands shake uncontrollably so I clasp them together. We enter the castle  and Jed orders his men away, bringing me to his corridor. I feel a sense of relief as my body finally comes to a still. "Anxiety?" Jed said, as we entered his room. I ignored his words, wandering around his room before approaching his bathtub and taking a step inside pulling off my clothes leaving me in my under garments. My nightgown lay beside the bathtub, as I turned the water on. Red water flushed down the drain, and I locked onto the cold feeling so my brain was distracted. Pulling off his coat, Jed approached his wardrobe. After 30 seconds pass, I feel a set of eyes on me. 'Why am I even here? what do I do now?' I thought, before stepping out of the tub. Jed approached me, snapping me out on my train of thought. "Take this, I don't want my floors wet." He said, handing me a towel along with a shirt. I thanked him, and dried off my feet and putting the shirt onto my body. "Anxiety?" Jed said again, after I was done. Ignoring him again, I began to walk around his room more.  This angered him, and in a spur of rage he grabbed my wrist turning me back towards him. "Answer me. Now." He said, glaring down at me. 

"Yes, it is anxiety. What do you care? I'm not here to be friends with you, you don't need to ask" I said harshly. "That is true, you aren't here to be friends with me" He smirked, before pinning me down to his bed. "You are here, because I want you to be mine. My little trophy, my play thing. Now I have you, and you can't fight back. You belong to me." Jed stated, looking down on me with a sinister look in his eyes. "What if I do fight back, what happens then?" I ask, looking into his eyes refusing to break eye contact. "I don't think you will, what do you have to fight back for? I saved you from the hell you called home. From those monsters that you called your parents. From that scum, that was once your brother. Out of your whole wretched family, you are the only one that deserved saving. You are stunning, I couldn't help myself." 

Shocked at his statement, I just looked at him. All words had escaped my mind, this didn't seem real. My whole family, gone. My kingdom, taken. All from this man on top of me, and yet I couldn't help but feel grateful. Was I a monster, for leaving my family and everything I worked for in the dust without feeling remorse. Those troubling thoughts didn't matter, not when I looked into his eyes. They felt so small, so insignificant. Everything about him drew me in. His looks, his words, the way he smelled. It was so inviting, and felt so safe. A feeling of safety that I wasn't familiar with, one that was so foreign to me. All my walls dropped, and the tears came flooding down. Why was I crying? Why do I feel forgiven? Jed's lips touched my skin, kissing my cheek softly before licking my tears. "Salty" He said, after pulling away for a second and scrunched up his face jokingly. I let out a laugh, before pulling him down to kiss him.  His lips are so soft, his kisses so gentle. My first kiss was taken by this man who stole me away.