Dawn & Brandon (Welcome to the Dollhouse)

hard to get

It felt like butterflies in my stomach, i felt high, his body on mine holding me in place. It had been so long since id felt his touch, he smelt so good, i wanted to hug him, tell him how much i missed him. but i couldnt get the words out. he was still waiting for me to respond. im sure he could tell how flustered he made me, my cheeks were burning pink and i couldnt breath let alone think of a response... why didnt i scream? i think a part of me trusts him still.

He gets off of me and takes out a smoke and lighter.

Why did you leave?

I gathered myself and caught my breath, sitting next to him i could see the hurt in his eyes as he lit the smoke.

Brandon, You got bored of me like always, and i wanted to find a better life

We were fine, there was nothing wrong.

No brandon we werent. We were just barely surviving, we were kids, we still are. I was scared and alone, and so were you. We needed help.

Fuck that. I took care of you. You were mine, we didnt need anything else or anyone else. You fucked that all up dawn.

No i didnt brandon. You didnt want me, you just didnt wanna be alone. I was invisible. At the start it was good, but it stopped, and you found somoene else anyways so i figured it was best to just go. we were toxic together.

go fuck yourself dawn.

Im sorry brandon

Your a pathetic loser anyways, its not like i needed you

Hearing him say that was like being punched in the stomache. i couldnt sit there and listen anymore, so i got up and started to walk away.

This isnt over dawn" he yelled as i continued home

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fuck. i sighed and jumped into bed, scrolling through my phone to a message from liz

Hey, wanna go to a party tommorow night?

Not really

Ethan will be there

Shit... i almost forgot

why

Brandon

oml girl get over it, brandon is old news, ethan is one of the hottest boys in our grade and he asked me if you were going!

help me pick something to wear

Of course girl i got u, come over after school just tell your mom were doing a project

yeah

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Dawn!

I wake up to see my mom and sister in my room staring me down

Yeah?

Were going to be gone for a couple days, make sure you lock everything when you leave.

okay, where are you going?

were going to see some concert your sister wanted to see for her birthday and then go visit your aunt for a bit.

Oh... They left as i processed what was happening still groggy and tired.

I fell back asleep and woke up to my alarm blaring. SHit! i quickly got dressed and ran out the door, still missing the bus so i just started walking. a car sped by and then stopped a bit in front of me, it looked like ethan and his friends. he yelled for me to get in so i sped up my pace and hopped in.

We got to school and i thanked him again

At my locker there was an old photo taped to my locker of me in middle school, and a group of people nearby seemed to be giggling about it