POSSESIVENESS_ZHANYI

CHAPTER 7

The more I wanted to distract myself, the more deeper I start to think about the last text he ended at. Will he text me again?

Or is it the end of us? We'll talk right? 

These queries kept me awake, even when my lazy bum just decided to lay on the bed. I was disturbed. My ears pained , I was waiting to hear the sound of notification.  No! God please this can't be the end. Why am I thinking so much? I can myself leave a text.

But will it be weird? Like will I look like I'm pestling around him. The more the time passed, my chest became heavier. I was dazed into the world of unending thoughts that kept me away from breathing clear. 

I felt pressure , strong pressure around my chest. I wanted to scream. What was happening ? Was I too much into the thoughts? Or is it something to do with my health? 

Things were very new to me and I didn't know what to do. That's when my heart skipped a beat as the my call rang suddenly. Ah! I was so scared. Just so scared. Maybe it was too loud to pull me out of my daze. 

I groaned and grabbed the phone in my hand. 

*Hao Xuan*  ... calling .. calling...*

Why did I feel disappointed seeing his name? All day up till then, whenever my buddy would call me, I would be so happy and excited to share things to him. Hao Xuan and me are best buddies since last ten years or more I suppose. He has become a part of my life. 

We both have always been in each other's gay-gloomy days. From tears to smiles and from fights to crushing over someone, we share everything. There's barely anything that I don't know about him.

But this time. This time it wasn't the same. How can I share something so stupid? That I'm falling for a guy. A guy? He would puke over me right? I didn't know what to do. I didn't feel like sharing. But I know once I talk to him. I'll gulp out everything to him.

I let his call end, into a missed call. Once the call died down. I clicked on the message button, and typed out a text to avoid him.

Yibo: Buddy! I'm feeling sick. Sorry gotta sleep. Talk to yaa later!

It didn't even took a second , that I received his reply. There he goes. Ah! why does he becomes so nosy?

Xuan: Hey! What's wrong? Why didn't you tell me? 

I didn't bother myself to reply the text. Shoving the phone away, I turn to the other side, paying my back to the phone. 

Half an hour passed by, all I did was staring at the clock hands move. But to my annoyance, my mom gave me the announcement.

"Yibo! Honey! Xuan is here to meet you."

What the hell? Can't he let me rest. This was the very first time , I felt angry that he visited me. Even when I fight with him, I never felt angry when he would come and coax me or apologize to me. But why today? 

I felt angry on my ownself. I felt it was unfair for him. But what if he starts hating me knowing the truth. I was still into the thoughts, when my door dashed open and Xuan fumed in with a worried face.

"Hey! Yibo. Are you okay my boy? What happened?"

"Tsk! It's nothing. Why did you bothered to come? I just need to rest."

I said in a mean voice. And I could clearly see the worried face changing into an angry disappointed face. His face was holding clear wrath. He was meddling with his own thoughts. I could so clearly read  his face.

"Sorry my bad. Come join me."

I ended up apologizing. I can't treat him this way. His face was little at ease by then. He crouched on the bed, but couldn't meet my eyes.