Pregnant With His (Nate Maloley)

3.

It just physically hurts me to know in my heart, and in my mind that Nate will probably never love me again after I tell him.
I know im being so overdramatic about it, but who can blame me?
Who would want to be a mother at 16, and a father at 20.
My life is going to be turned around forever, and this means that I have to give up so much, while Nate doesnt have to give up anything.
It just isnt fair.
I wished he had to carry our baby for 9 months.
I wished he would get his period so he would know what it feels like.
I just wished he could see how much I love him.
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Today's finally the day my baby comes home. Its been 2 months since ive saw him. Which means im already 2 months pregnant.
Im kind of showing at the moment, but maybe Nate will get the hint, and I wont have to tell him.
I finally hear a car door shut, and the front door open.
I run up and hug him before he could even sit his stuff down.
"Damn Lil Mama You Must Have Missed Me" he says.
"I always miss you" i say.
He just sits there and stares at me.
No enotion to it, just point blank staring at me.
I ask him what he keeps looking at.
"Have you gotten fatter" he asks.
In that moment i dont know what hit me, but all of a sudden I started crying.
I didnt want him to see me like this so I just went up stairs.
"Woah Baby are you okay" he asks as he comes into our room.
"No Nate im not okay, and im not going to keep lying to you" i say.
"Lying to me" he asks.
"Nate the reason im crying is because im pregnant" i say
"I didnt want you to freak out, and come home early from your tour just because of me being fucked up" i say.
All he could do was look at me, and in that moment I knew I should have just kept my mouth shut, and my thoughts bundled up.