Midnight Desires

who the bells tolls

Ok guys just know I love you and this chapter is hard I was balling  my eyes out writing this. It mentions miscarriage and  suicide thoughts. If you or some you know is going thru pain and you think that you are done with life just know you are loved and people are here for you please reach out for help were here for you and you can message me at any time my insta is benelylove or my personal account barbarashamblen18 just know you are not alone.

    

 

   It has benn 2 months since they got back together and miranda was heart broken for there lost of the baby she shut out the whole world and decided she was done she wanted a way out she knew ben was seeing Jasmine after she lost the baby. He could not bring himself to look at her. She need him but he decided to walk away and miranda was ok with that. Today was the day that she was going to kill her self.  She thought about it for a while and that this was the only way to stop the pain.
Only if she had that man of her dreams to be there she only need a look or something to know he still loved her but he didn't. She decided she was going to drop tuck off at Callie with a bag she wrote tucks notes for when he got older.  She sat in the car for a moment before tuck said something.
Mommy are we going in to aunt Callie now.
Yeah baby she said wiping her tears away.
She got out of the car and got tuck ready. She walked up to her house and rung the door bell. Callie opened  the door and knew something was not right. Miranda handed her his stuff.
Miranda squatted down to tucks level.
Hey baby boy I want you to know mommy loves you she said hugging  him and she kissed his forehead.
Callie knew what type of hug that was.
It was a goodbye.
Mommy
Yes baby.
I love you.

I love you too tuck she said with tears falling. Thank you Callie ben will be the one picking him up.

Miranda are you ok. How about you come in for a cup of coffee and we can talk.

Im sorry Callie  I have things to do. She leaned in and hugged her. I love you bestie

I love you too miranda.

Miranda walked away and went back to her car and left.

Callie had a uneasy felling and knew something was not right.

Miranda made it back home and went inside and poured her self a glass of wine and went into the bathroom and ran a tub of water after it was filled she turned the water off and grabbed the pills out of the cabinet. She had tears running down her faces she grab a handful of pills taking then and drunk some of her wine she got into the tub and and closed her eyes.

Callie was going thru tucks bag to find him clothes to change into to go to the park and she found the letters and she knew what miranda was going to do.
She ran and grab her phone. Arizona look at her confused.
Baby what is the matter.
I need to to call Richard saying there bring miranda In on a ambulance I think she is going to kill her self.
Ok
Callie started calling ben and waited for him to pick up.

What Callie I kinda busy.
Ben listen to me you need to go to Miranda's now.
What the hell Callie why should I.
Because ben she going to kill her self and I don't know if in to late. Your closer to her than I am.
Ben went quite his whole world stop how could this be happening.
Ok I'm going.
He hung up and grab his keys and and left.
Ok Richard said that he has a room ready for her and get to her a fast as we can.
Ben is going over there now and and we need to go to the hospital now.
Did Richard call a ambulance.
Yes he did.

Ben made it to Miranda's before anyone . He ran inside rushing up stairs  he tried to open her bedroom door but it was lock. Miranda honey open the door now please. Baby you can't do this he screamed with tears running down his face. He stepped  back and papered him self for what he was about to see. He kicked door open and she was not in her room he ran into the bathroom seeing  the pill bottle on the sink. He looked over at the tub seeing her he ran over and feel on his knees  he grabbed her pulling her from under the water. He stared doing CPR trying  to get her back. He pulled her up to his chest holding her.  Come on baby please breath we need you I need you. He said crying his eyes out.