I can still remember the moment he was taken from vividly.I could hear my mother's voice her soul pulling at my limbs as I struggle to even speak but I could see what killed him.She used her magic it's colour blue as it shined it was illuminous.She slammed him against one of the rocks she had created it went though his chest blood explode from him.In the moment nothing could stop me I broke free and bolted to him.His skin was pale as snow i grabbed his frail body as the crystals quickly disappeared.I clenched him in my arms.My tears dripping on his face and he spoke softy
"I love you varian can you promise me that you'll always smile and spread joy to others".His arm shaked as he put his cold hands on my face.I lifted up his face and kissed him delicately and then he was dead.He had drifted away from me in my arms.His blood on my lips and it covered my blue jumper.I lifted his body up and I ran to the exit.Yong gave this horrified look this look of terror and sadness.Nuru covered her mouth her eyes stabbed with shock.I lay Hugo on the floor and ran to opposite side of the room and I threw up.I think it was all body and carrying him.The smell of fresh blood wreaked off him.Everybody in the room was choking on they're tears.Donella walked to body and then cried "Hugo i-i didn't mean to hurt let alone kill you.Im sorry I'm so so sorry" she wiped the tears of her face.Yong rested his hand on her shoulder
"He would of forgiven you"He muttered . After awhile of Hugo body laying on the floor the guards of corona show up.Eugune was here too he hugged me tightly and walked me to corona.I wished he wasn't so bussy I liked his company it helped me.But I lay lonely in my room and then I realised he had slipped his glasses into my pocket.I held them in my hands I tried to smile but I couldn't.I need to smile even if it's fact for him for my promise.I forced a smile but my tears began too fall god I'm so pathetic.Then the door opens its rapunzel she sat next to me."I heard what happened, are you okay".A sudden extreme rage overfilled me 'are you okay'
'ARE YOU OKAY'."What type of question is that!of course I'm okay rapunzel!"I snapped back.Then she looked hurt she looked away " Wait! Rapunzel I didn't mean that-"I begged "I think you need alone time varian"She replied getting up.She left room while she wiped her dress.I run to the bad and start to sob nobody was here for me they're too busy to help maybe if I work harder they care?I get out of bed and sit at my desk and began to work.
A week after hugo's death
I've overworked myself.Ive barely eaten and I can't think straight I have to rest.I sleepily walked to my bed and lay.There is knock on the door.Its Eugune he's next to me at a distance that's good enough that he's close to me but not suffocating me with his presence."I can't tell you don't feel well you been overworking yourself and I think you can admit it too"He said and the he laughed awkwardly "I just....don't know what to do I've working to meet my mum i gained a lover and then I lost him"I replied
"The mother I was so desperate to meet
Killed the one I was so desperate to love"I mumbled.He looked at me he look so worried that it made me want to feel better but I wasn't that simple I couldn't just feel better."I wished I could feel better Eugene" I began to sobbed"I can't just let go it's left a mark on my soul I can't escape the sadness it drags me down and I'm all alone in the hollow of my flowing sadness"I explained how I truly felt I wanted help.Im crying for help.He hugs
Me "These things don't fix easily it takes time and effort and you'll have moments were you can't be okay but that doesn't mean you won't ever be okay varian"He
Said.I held his arms and lay my face there I sobbed and sobbed until I heard Pete yelled "They need you captain!".Eugene stood up and then whispered "you can have they day off" and then winked.I
quickly fell asleep and slept for rest of the day.
2 weeks later l
I after 3 Hugo's has been stent to corona.Im given goggles,wine and a book.First i look at the wine there lots of differnt brands but they're all red wine.Then i look at some of his paintings and theyre all great but they need work but the one that sticks out to me is the mona lisa somehow Hugo had a copy of the mona lisa. I then see the one he drew i began to laugh and then i stand up and swap the painting of my mother for his mona lisa."Thats even better" i mutter to myself.After that i grab a book called "Our books of memories.The front pages had blue and yellow with red tips.(i googled meanings for roses but the ones i like the most was blue: the unattainable, the impossible and yellow with reds tips: falling in love)sadly look at cover as I brushed my hand on it to get rid of dust.The page has a little message
It read:
'Dear Varian,
I love you well that's kinda obvious but still
I made this book as a gift to future me if for some reason on here anymore then write about and draw me please :)'
I began to giggle reading this reminds me of him.But its also remember that I lost him.My first kiss wasn't warm and happy
It was cold I felt his body die as I kissed him I still enjoyed because I was his kiss.
'Hugo" I write 'I would do anything to kiss you'.Its silly because there is a lonely idiot writing to his dead boyfriend.I turn through I can remember these days like it was just yesterday and I smile a true grin that's isn't force for the first time when he died. God he's made me a mess a fool for him.Then something caught my eye in the back of book.It was ring and it a sapphire stone that glimmered in the sunlight through my window.Was he already planning our-I can't finish that sentence a dread washes over me.I feel sick to stomach I miss him so much.I put the on my desk and I grabbed the ring and lay in bed alone in the quiet of autumn.Then I hear movement and I see a little golden mouse."Oliva?"I exclaimed "How did you get and what happened to ear there is a little chip come im going to get a plaster"I say as I look through my drawers and a grabbed a plaster and put it on her ear.She put her paws on her ears and I put a plaster on a small cut on my hand "Look now we both are better"I remarked then smiled at mouse.She then nuzzled her cheeks against my hand"why don't you get some rest Olivia"I layed on the bed sideways Olivia rests herself in my arms
and I sleep for the day.
