Alone

Painful Moments

Is being in love painful?

Is it good to be in a relationship?

Is loving someone okay?

Those are some question that keeps circulating in my mind.Seeing some people holding hands or even being together is an eyesore for my eyes.Well is not that I'm jealous or anything,its just that I feel sorry for the other person if her/his other partner will end the relationship.Is just too painful in my opinion.

I use to be like them once.Holding hands and act lovey-dovey towards one and other.The feelings when you get when youre with him,your heart rate will go faster than the usual rate.That moment was one of the best moments that I could have wish for.

But as time has pass by,things got really busy for us both( I guess).He would always say things like
"Sorry,I'm busy" or "Not today,sorry" or even "Oh,I have to go,I have to attend this important meeting with my friend,sorry babe,I promise,I will bring you somewhere for our date".

Those word kept repeating in my mind,knowing something is going weird about him,I trust him,I really do,I know he's just busy doing someting that is really important.I believe in him,and I know he will never hurt me....

But my thoughts was wrong,It was the time that I was going to buy some hot coffee,since it was winter at that moment.As I was entering the shop,there,he was sitting at the table,talking to someone who looks really beautiful.They kept laughing at each other jokes,talking about random things,smiling to one another,is like they are meant for each other.

"Maybe this is just one of his friend" I said to myself,trying to calm my self down and trying to not think weird things.

But it looks like I was wrong again,they both did someting that a girlfriend would'nt want to see.
It shattered me inside,tears building up at my eyelids,my mind can't think properly as I keep saying "This is not real,not real at all!".

I just could'nt take it anymore,I ran straight home,locked my door and kept crying till I sleep.

He was my everything,he always been there for me,it was him who changed me to be a better person..

A few weeks has pass after the incident,I ended the relationship with him,suprisingly he said that he loves someone else.I wasnt shocked by this,since I've seen it before.We both talked for while and then parted our ways.And it felt like we were strangers all over again..

I felt quite realived after a few more days without him,I felt freedom(for some reason),but deep inside,I still feel something was still missing.

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Hey guys,Aleesa here,so yeah,this is my first chapter for this story,sorry if its confusing for you guys,I am not really good at doing this type of story,but at the same time I'll try best to make this story better..

*Plus-if you guys want to tell me something,
just comment down below and I'll try
my best to answer you guys back.

Hope you guys enjoy and have a good day........... ^-^