i still love you - sunki ff

bonus chapter + new book!!

a/n: so i already published the info and character intros for give it a try. you can find it on my profile! i also announced a spoiler hehe<3

anyways on w the bonus chapter !

(takes place after sunoo rejected sunghoon and chose riki, in sunghoon's pov)

a muffled sob escaped sunghoon's mouth as he opened the door to his apartment, trying not to make noise. 

he didn't want to wake jay or jake up, much less tell them that he was upset because sunoo had chosen ni-ki. surely they would ask if he saw him with tears streaming down his face.

it was a given anyways. he should have expected sunoo to pick ni-ki over him, judging by the way they were glued together all the time off camera.

by why, why hadn't sunoo told him that they were dating?

another wave of sadness swept over him.

maybe he was scared. maybe he wasn't sure how i would react. so did he know that i liked him?

he thought back to when sunoo burst into tears when sunghoon had softly mumbled, "i expected that, sunoo. don't worry, i'm not too upset."

a lie, that's what it was.

a huge, fat lie.

of course he was upset. it was heartbreaking, knowing that the person you loved, wanted to be with someone else. he had barely managed to suppress the urge to start bawling in front of sunoo's apartment.

and it seemed, that the words he had spoken seemed to hurt sunoo more. had sunoo expected him to act like the world was ending? why had he started crying even harder after he spoke?

it made a selfish glimmer of hope flicker in his chest, but he quickly shook it away.

no, he told himself. no. don't lead yourself on, sunghoon.

he threw his bag down onto the couch, letting out a sniffle.

i need to get over this quickly. and i don't want this to ruin the friendship sunoo and i have.

clasping his hands together, he leaned his head back, exhausted. 

he tried sleeping, but to no avail. different thoughts kept entering his mind, and he thought, again, of what had happened earlier.

"go home, sunghoon hyung. i can take care of him," ni-ki murmured, looking straight at him.

"ni-ki san. let me help you, please. i will feel bad if i don't," he responded, knowing he had to look desperate at that moment. but he didn't care. sunoo was all that mattered.

disappointment and protectiveness entered ni-ki's eyes. 

"hyung. i think we have a few things we need to sort out, alright? i'll put sunoo in bed first. then we can talk in his living room."

gulping, sunghoon agreed. at least ni-ki didn't seem threatening, or angry at the fact that he liked sunoo as well. he just looked like he wanted to awkwardness between them to clear up, and for their own relationship to go back to how it was before.

"we're married!" ni-ki's excitement-filled joke from their birthday vlive rang in his ears, and he actually smiled a little through the tears that wanted to escape.

he entered sunoo's apartment behind ni-ki and waited, sitting on the couch.

after a while, ni-ki emerged from sunoo's room, promptly sitting beside him.