Her Beautiful Obsession

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Natalia in the media:)

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And so I breath and hold my demons,
I will cover my thorn with clouds and petals,
And scent my smell with your fragrance,
As well as wear your smile as mine struggles,
You will be my change, as I change for you.
-Demonise

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Candles and Roses..

The fragrance of burn candles and fresh roses. The way the yellow chandeliers illuminates the fancy silk dressed in the tables. The way people in two pairs move gracefully and talk to each other like they are whispering lovely words as they share a smile of passion and elegance. And a faint violin playing somewhere in the corner.

Nothing more elegant and romantic than this, lalo na't dahil sa kaharap ko na mahinhing kumakain.

I didn't move my food a little and just stare at her for a while now. Kind of creepy, yes, but I can't help it.

This.. all of this were like a beautiful dreams come true for me.

Me sitting right next to Natalia, the smell of melt candles and roses. It's nostalgic. I can see myself in a kitchen, and instead of an expensive steaks placed perfectly in the plates, I see a delicious adobo I made myself. Like I just went back on the times where we have our first ever dinner date.

This was all feels surreal.

She always made me feel like living my dreams. She was like not even real at all. I mean, just look at her. With a simple white blouse, she didn't even bother to change in a nice dress for this date, yet still, she manage to be as perfect as she is. She was the most gorgeous human being I had ever laid my eyes into.

And nothing ever had made me happy than this first step I take in making her mine. I haven't done much yet, but seems like I'm the one trapping myself in her spell. I don't know what to think at all, but the fact that I have dated her again. For almost 7 years or so, this is the second time I get to ask her out.

I miss you, Natalia..

Instead of saying it out loud, I just keep it to myself for now. It's not the right time yet. I don't want to ruin this night for something I'm not sure about that she will comprehend.

But in all honesty, I am dying to say those words over and over again. I won't get tired and I will never stop till this longing in my chest will vanish into thin air.

"Aren't you hungry?"

I've snapped back to reality by hearing those sweet angelic voice.

"You haven't touch your food." Muli niyang sambit.

Napatikhim na lamang ako at umayos ng upo. "Oh sorry. You were just too gorgeous, I almost forgot I'm starving." I kids half-heartedly, as it was rather true than a joke.

Bahagya naman syang napangiti sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko alam kung kinikilig ba sya or nasisiyahan sa sinabi ko.

"Thank you but you really have to eat. You still owe me a story after this."

Ah yes, oo nga pala. Muntik ko narin makalimutan. "Yes, I almost forgot."

"Silly. Don't think of me that much."

Muli ko syang tinignan dahil sa huling sinabi niya pero bumalik na ulit sya sa pagkain. Hindi ko alam kung narinig ko ba iyon ng tama o may sinabi nga ba sya after the 'silly' word.