Payback is a Bitch (HIATUS)

Chapter 7

Simula ng dumating si Toby sa bahay na ito ay hindi na ako natahimik. He's the epitome of noisy.

"Brielle, loosen up a bit! You look so old with your eyeglass with matching wrinkles in your forehead." He always say and I always answer back, "Asshole." And then he'll just laugh so hard that it irritate my ears.

He does know about my past heartache but he doesn't know that it's Marion. Thank goodness I haven't told him who he is because if so, I know, he will beat him to death. Not that I don't want that douchebag to hurt it's because I want it to be me to hurt him so bad that he will beg to end it soonest. Call it sadist, I don't care.

"Excuse me Ma'am. There's a man outside and he wants to talk to you." My secretary said. Thank goodness for once in her life she sounds professional. "Who is he?" I answered.

"It's To-"
"Good morning, B!" B? Seriously?!
"Jenny, you may go." I dismissed her already dahil nakikita kong kumikinang na naman ang kaniyang mga mata sa kalandian. She stood still there. Do I have to shout, really?
"Do I have to pluck your eyes out to prevent you from staring at my man?" I asked in higher pitch. I can sense Toby's smile. Enjoying the show, eh?
"Why, are you afraid that I might get him too?" She asked proudly with that irritating smile pasted on her lips that I want to erase with the stapler hanging out in my table.
"Sorry Miss but my woman is irreplaceable and I don't see any woman but Brielle." Her facial expression is priceless. Gosh, I'm willing to pay the price para makita ulit ang mukha niyang napahiya.
I looked at her raising my eye brows so she reached for the door and left.

"So, I'm your man now eh?" He asked jestingly. I just raised my eye brows at him and continued reading. Umupo siya sa harapan ko at ramdam kong pinapanuod niya ako habang nagbabasa.
"Why are you here Tob?" I asked without breaking eye contact with the papers in my hand.
"Can we go out? I'm so bored na sa bahay niyo." He pleaded. Kaawa-awang bata. He can speak tagalog but minimal that sometimes he sounds so maarte because he's being conyo.
"Where do you want to go then?" I asked him teasingly.
"I want to eat!" He's like a kid most of the time and he's so cute just like right now. "What do you want to eat, kid?" I got him there. He doesn't want to be called kid because he said that he's too handsome to look like a kid.

"Halika na, Brielle. I'm famished! Kathy didn't fed me in your house kanina. She was so tamad she said." I laughed so hard. Nakakaiyak pala tumawa ng ganito. Hahahaha
"Why are you laughing at me?!" Iritado niyang tanong. "Because you're so cute like Mara." I told him and pinched his rosy cheeks.
"Aray namen, B!" Sigaw niya sa akin. Namumula iyong kinurot ko, nakakaawa pero mas nangingibabaw yung pagka-cute niya talaga.

"I'm sorry, kid." I said at hinaplos ko ang kaniyang mukha and looked very sincere but then I pinched him again.
He cried in pain at sakto namang pagbukas ng pinto.

"Ahem." It's Marion. Damn. Paano?
"Sorry for the disturbance but I have something important to discuss with you." He said emotionlessly as far as my observation is concerned.

"What's this important matter all about at hindi ka makapaghintay Mr. Alajar?" I asked nonchalantly. "Can we talk alone? Please?" Tumaas ang kilay ko. Really?

"Whatever it is that you'll tell me, we don't have to be alone because Mr. Erb will be the internal Vice President soon in my company." Shocked, both of them. "So I guess you can say it now because we still have things to attend to." I said, that pulled them back to reality.

"What I am about to tell you is not concerned about the company, Brielle." He looked intently at me like he was burrying a hole in my skull. "It's about us." I heard Toby laughed and I looked at him signalling to stop and so he did.

"There's nothing to talk about us, Mr. Alajar. There's no US may I remind you because you seem to forget it." Ang kapal ng mukha niyang pumunta dito at sabihing mag usap tungkol sa nakaraan when in fact siya mismo ang tumuldok sa kung ano mang meron kami noon. "You can go now." I told him emotionlessly and stood up but he grabbed my hand but before he touched me he was already lying on the floor with his nose bleeding dahil sa lakas ng suntok ni Toby.

"Toby please stop. You might kill him!" His blows didn't stop until I pushed him hard. He is about to attack him again but I positioned myself in front of Marion's semi-unconscious body lying on the floor as a sheild. "Please Toby, stop it!" Sigaw ko sa kaniya. He stormed out of the room. Makakapatay siya ng tao dahil sa init ng ulo niya!
Dumating si Jenny at nilapitan niya kaming dalawa ni Marion dahil nasa tabi pa rin niya ako.

"Anong ginawa mo sa kanya?! Napakalandi mong babae! Tignan mo ang nangyayari sa kalandian mo, lahat ng tao nasasaktan!" Sigaw niya sa akin habang inaalalayan niyang makatayo si Marion.

"Sino sa palagay mo ang mas malandi sa ating dalawa ha?! Kung hindi ba naman pumunta yang boyfriend mo dito at nagpupumilit na mag usap kami oh di sana hindi siya nagkakaganyan ngayon." Galit ako. Galit ako sa kanilang dalawa. Galit ako kay Toby. At galit na galit ako sa sarili ko. "Your boyfriend tried to talk to me about the past Jenny and I declined because I'm not like you! I won't degrade my dignity again just because of him!"

"Brielle, please hear me out." Marion said weakly. Why does he have to do this?! He's making things harder for the both of them.

"Enough Marion please! Why do you have to bring back the past when I'm already coping up with my present?! I have waited for two years for you to come back but you never did. I even lost my child because of you, you asshole!" Natigilan ako. I shouldn't have said it.

"Child? What child, Brielle?" Tanong niya. "Tama na Marion! Halika na." Matigas na sabi sa kanya ni Jenny. And as if on cue I walked out of my office and looked for my car and drove away from everyone.

After hours of driving, I found myself in front of her epitaph. Since we transferred her here ngayon ko lang ulit siya nabisita dahil sa kadahilanang ayaw ko siyang bisitahin hangga't hindi pa ako maayos.
I can feel the breeze of the wind touching me and the serenity from the quiteness of the environment.
"Hi baby. How are you up there?" My eyes began to water. Everytime I'm talking to her, I feel all the pain I have felt before and the greatest pain of all is losing my child. "I'm sorry kung ngayon ka lang nabisita ulit ni mommy. Baby, you know I already told your father about you. I don't want him to meet you, I know it's bad but he's the reason why I lost you. I can't find forgiveness in my heart. I don't want to be selfish pagdating sayo anak pero hindi ko matanggap na nawala ka dahil sa kanya. I'm sorry if mommy is being selfish please help me find forgiveness for your father. Help me forgive him so that my heart and my life will be at peace because anak ayoko ng makaramdam ng galit dahil simula ng mawala ka iyon na lang ang parati kong nararamdaman." My heart is breaking dahil sa sobrang sakit ang lungkot na nararamdaman ko. "Alam ko anak na matagal na mula ng pagkawala mo at dapat ay tanggap ko ng wala ka pero hindi ko kaya. I'm sorry baby if I can't let go of you." Sobrang sakit na ng nararamdaman ko dahil ngayon lang ulit ako naglabas ng sama na loob at sa anak ko pa talaga.

"You don't have to let go of our little angel, Brielle." Hindi ko namalayan ang pagdating ni Dad at hindi ko namalayan na madilim na pala.

"Dad, how did you find me?" I asked him without looking at him kasi alam kong hindi ko kakayanin at baka mag breakdown ako sa harapan niya. I've caused too much ill feelings sa kanya at ayaw ko ng madagdagan pa ulit iyon.

"You're my daughter at kilalang kilala kita, anak. I heard about the incident kanina sa office mo at ginugulo ako ni Marion sa opisina ko tungkol sa anghel natin." Lumapit siya sa akin at niyakap and his hug made me feel like home. As if on cue, I cried my heart out.

"Dad, it hurts so much I think I can't handle it any longer." I told him while sobbing uncontrollably.

"You're a very strong woman, Tabby. I know life is hard towards you but you still managed to go through it." My dad and I stayed there for a little longer until I stopped crying.

"Tabby, you are a good person don't forget that. Do not let anyone make you forget that. I miss my Tabby baby, please bring her back." My father pleaded.