LOTUS DAYDREAM.

' 00. The Death of The Innocent

       CHAPTER ZERO: The Death of The Innocent.
❛  I can die a peaceful and
                      Fulfilled death.  ❜

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                A COLD WHISK OF AIR struck calmly at the woman who sat on the grassy field, a field that held such value to herself and her beloved. She hummed out a small tune as she continued to play with a leaf, the color of which could resemble the color of a rotting pumpkin, and the shape of which looked like the fallen wing of a moth. There was some yellow and a darker shade of brown splattered on the leaf. It was a very beautiful leaf, and Miss Luisa fell in love once again. Luisa found it easy to fall in love with the little things life had to offer—someone could call it ugly, but Luisa could find small details that express beauty in that something. And that is what Ivan seemed to fall in love with as well. However, he mostly fell in love with Luisa. He liked her small details as much as she loved to find them in nature's backyard.

"My dear Luisa, are you falling in love once again?" Ivan's voice was like a gentle stream of water or the gentle playing of a harp. It was popular within the men's category for their voices to be masculine and rough, but, of course, Ivan was much different from the other men. His voice was soft and comforting, almost resembling a stream of milk or the flush of leaves on a tree when the wind pushes the hanging leaves around, or maybe the soft singing of birds; these are all the things Luisa thinks of Ivan and his voice.

"Of course! It is my favorite activity to do whenever I'm out and about." Ivan can say the same thing about Luisa's voice: it's sweet, and it sounds exactly like what spring would sound like if it were a person. The blooming of flowers and the beautiful effect it had on the earth—yep, just like Luisa [l/n].

"Oh, I see... So, falling in love with me was just some sort of activity?" Ivan teased as he walked closer to his beautiful spring before sitting next to her. "Oh, why, of course! And to be quite frank, it was my favorite activity." She continued on with the teasing as a smile bloomed on her face. "Is falling in love with me at the top of your list when it comes to your 'all-time favorite things to do when bored'?" He turned his eyes to look at the woman he loved the most, only to be surprised when he caught her already looking at him.

"Why, of course."

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The harrowing cries of a woman could be heard even by those who stood far away from the decrepit wooden house. The said house was a small one due to the family not being financially stable (rich), but they were at least happy to have each other. That family was the [l/n]'s. Luisa and Ivan Ambrose [l/n]  got married on December 25, on Christmas Day. Ivan's gift to Luisa on Christmas was a life of commitment, trust, and, of course, love. Luisa was more than happy—she was content. Even if Ivan was not as wealthy as other men, he was as lovely as nature's gift.

And to explain why Luisa was filled with anguished screams, she was giving birth. So far, it had been successful, and Luisa and Ivan could never have been more grateful that the pain was almost over. Not only that, but the thought of being able to see their beautiful child and hold them in their arms felt like a beautiful dream. They don't want to wake up if this is considered a dream, especially for Luisa. She wishes not to wake and to continue her slumber.

Before Luisa knew it, the pain started to die down, as did her heartbeat. She felt her body slowly relax with ease, and her pain ceased to die down. Her eyes wavered and she struggled to keep awake, but she fought against it because she wished to gaze on the thing she shared her soul with. She gave this new existence life and parts of herself that, when she passes, Ivan will be able to look at their child and recognize her even with her gone. He will be able to turn to their child and see her. And as she was trained on her thoughts, she began to lose consciousness. Her eyes trembled as her sight was trained on the white cloth of the blanket that covered her legs. She stared blankly as the excruciating pain she once felt died down. Everything began to fade for her; her husband's worried pleas and the doctors' chatter were nothing but white noise at that point, her view continued to be hazy, and darkness began to consume the room. Almost as if she were being granted her wish of staying asleep and never waking from her dream.

"I'm tired..." She can barely even whisper; she was getting more drained. Her husband didn't even hear her, nor did the doctors or nurses. No one heard her; she was quiet as a mouse to them.

However, a sudden cheer that was loud enough for her to be able to make out made her wonder what had happened. As she pondered what had caused them to cheer, she felt cold hands touch her and grasp her for dear life. She couldn't hear the pleas from her husband, nor could she see how the nurses pushed him away. The darkness began to fully cover the room, but she was able to catch a glimpse of a figure that lay in the arms of the nurse who assisted the doctor. That figure disappeared as quickly as she first saw it. Despite how quickly the desired figure disappeared from her, she memorized how it looked, and as she accepted the abyss, she was able to think about how beautiful her child was. She didn't care that her life was cut too short; she was content with the outcome of everything. She was satisfied with the decisions she made in order to get to this point in life. She was happy that she spent her life with her first love, Ivan, and that she was able to end it with a new love. Her love bloomed from the murky earth and was able to continue life. She doesn't regret her life, and no matter how long she was able to live, she was glad to be able to live. In the end, she wished her lovers a peaceful and content life.

I can die a peaceful and fulfilled death.

AUTHORS NOTE ━━━━

Heyyyy 😅🤓👆This is a short chapter but I have another chapter coming up so dw. alsooo yesss i will start writing and updating but like this time for realsies. i've just been soo busy with life and ykk 😅 like college applications are coming up plus i literally got heartbroken like two/three weeks ago 😭 i'm trying guys i promise

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