"Only for you<3"

Chapter 6

Mason POV obviously:

   I sat down in the corner of the boys bathroom, I finally let the tears fall, there was a steady stream running down my face. I wasn't even sure why I was so sad, I was going to break up with her anyways. Maybe it was because even though I don't really like her romantically anymore, I stilled loved her, and she betrayed me. Maybe I should have seen it coming, though, Josie and her friends were horrible influences on her.

   I miss the old Charlotte. The one during 6th grade math class who actually knew the answer because she actually listened back then and helped me with the problems I didn't understand. Now that I think about it, I think it was Alec who scowled at Charlotte hugging me on the first day. How ironic, I chuckled at my own ignorance. I wonder how long she's been cheating on me, months? Weeks? Days? Maybe this was just starting.

   She was always a pretty secretive person though. Maybe I should have seen the signs. Maybe I should have put two and two together. Or maybe she was that good of a liar, or maybe she had me fooled. She doesn't deserve these tears that are falling from my face. She doesn't deserve the right to know I was upset.

   With that thought, I got up and wiped my face with water, that barely helped though as the tears started to flow again and I let out a few quiet sobs, fuck, I was a mess.

   I then heard footsteps getting closer to the bathroom, and before I could even react, the door swung right open, and there I saw him, Ezekiel Daniels(their last name I learned from Frank) in all of his glory.

   When he saw me his face contorted from confusion, to shock, to sadness, and back to confusion, "Hey, hey, hey, hey," He quickly said, closing the door to the bathroom, "What happened? Why are you crying?" He instantly walked up to me and grabbed my face, looking around it to see if I was injured.

   "Um- it's um nothing." I said through sniffles, also trying to wipe my teary eyes. The tears didn't stop falling though, "Hey, it's obviously not nothing," He looked at me with a worried expression, "Tell me what happened Mason." He lowered his tone slightly, and not going to lie, it was kinda hot. Fuck. Mason, that's weird, don't think that about your friend.

   My face flushed red, but since I was crying it didn't really change much, "Um, it's Charlotte," I started to say, sniffling slightly throughout my sentence, "She was cheating on me." I finally said sadly. Zeke's face turned to one of anger and sadness, but not pity, he didn't pity me, "Hey, hey, it's ok, you didn't need her anyways, she was rude and treated you badly." He started to talk to me, trying to comfort me.

   Then he did something I didn't expect, he enveloped me into a big, long, warm hug. He rested his chin on my head due to me being 5 inches shorter. After around 5 seconds I hugged him back, enjoying the warmth. It instantly made me feel a lot better, and for a second, I forgot about Charlotte.

   Zeke smelled like honey, it was great. I could feel his muscles through his shirt, and damn, he probably works out a lot, his muscles were so defined and firm, but definitely comforting.

   The hug lasted for a couple minutes, and I enjoyed every second, we finally did pull apart though, and I was immediately rejoined with the cold after letting go. Zeke looked at me, "Are you feeling any better?" I had only now realized that I had stopped crying, "I feel a lot better, thank you." I replied, grabbing a tissue and blowing my nose afterwards.

   "Good, I'm glad, I don't like it when your sad." He stated calmly. That made my heart skip a few beats, and I honestly thought it stopped working for a second. I've never felt this way, ever, I've never felt this way with anyone. I really need to think about this.

   "You should probably get back to class." I said, looking at my watch, "Oh shit, yeah, Mr.Lockhart is gonna be so pissed at me." He started to say while fake crying, "Will you be okay?" He turned to me and asked, "I'll be fine, thank you." I looked at him and smiled, "Go, get to class." I pushed. He finally walked out and too class, leaving me alone.

   I sat in the corner and just replayed what happened in my mind. I pulled out my phone and googled, Why does my stomach twist and my heart rate accelerate when I'm with a specific person?

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   Bi-curious? No, maybe I should have answered some of the questions differently. I can't be bisexual, I like girls, only girls, girls and that's it.. but that might explain why I've never really had girl crushes, and being gay would explain why I can't get an erection with Charlotte, but maybe that's just because I've never really been attracted to her. But maybe I'm not attracted to her because I'm gay. God, no, I'm not fucking gay, I can't be gay, I just can't be. All of this is making my head hurt, I'll think about it later, class is over in 10 minutes, I'll just play a game on my phone for now.

   I played on my phone for the next 10 minutes, and once the bell rang I peeled myself from the wall and wiped my face with water, I walked out of the bathroom trying not to think about Charlotte, but that was useless, especially since she was right in front of me, looking at me with an expression as if she was about to tell me my dad had died in a car crash.

   "Mason, what you saw back there, it wasn't what it looked like." She blurted out quickly. "Then what was it?" I asked her calmly, she wasn't going to see me upset, I refuse to let her see that she hurt me, "Um, it was- um-" She started to stutter out random non-sense, her words incoherent, "Charlotte, just stop talking, you cheated on me. We're over." I told her and started to walk away. I heard small sniffles coming from where she stood and that made me extremely angry, she didn't have any right to be upset, she ruined us, she ruined everything.

   But I wasn't going to let my emotions get the better of me. I clenched my fists and walked away before I made an irrational decision. I grabbed my stuff from and my locker and went to class, hoping to god it was over soon.

The time went by extremely slow, I just wanted to go home, put my pjs on and eat chocolate frosting, before I go home I'm going to walk to the store and buy some chocolate frosting. Will I regret it? Probably, am I still going to get it? Absolutely. I just wanted to die. I wish there could be a freak accident and while I'm walking through a doorway the top falls off and kills me. I just don't want to deal with emotions anymore. 3 years of my life were just wasted on someone who obviously never cared about me.

I'm not going to cry again. At least not in class, it was my last period, it's almost over, it's almost over. Mrs. Geffreys is my favorite teacher so far, she seems like a really good teacher so far, but, it is only the second day, so I shouldn't get ahead of myself.

I was counting down the seconds by now, and then, the awaited arrival of the bell finally happened, thank Jesus. I was so glad it was over.

I walked out of the classroom and to my locker, I got my stuff and then turned around and saw Zeke, "Hey, you doing okay? I'm sorry I didn't check in earlier." He said sympathetically, "Yeah, I'm okay, do you want to walk to the bus together?" I asked, "Yeah, let's go."

We walked to the bus together and stayed in silence the whole walk. We sat in the same seat at the back of the bus, "Y'know, I'm excited for when I get my drivers license, I'll be taking us to and from school." Zeke said nonchalantly, "Us?" I asked confused, "Well yeah, your my new bestie, I gotta give you rides, and we live super close so it's not gonna be hard." He explained, I simply smiled at him and said, "You don't have to do that Zeke.", "Of course I do, you'll get lonely on the bus without me." He replied cheerfully, I chuckled at his demeanor, "Ok." I replied simply. He looked at me and gave me his signature smile. I just admired his beautiful face, he truly was such a good person, it felt like butterflies were flying around in my stomach, and then, the realization hit me like a train.

I think I might be gay.