What Hurts The Most

How do you ask for an apology when you're the one to blame,

For being the one who wasn't able to set boundaries and draw a line

You have become people I would trust to defend my name,

It's unexpected that you would be the one to break my spine

You have shielded me from my monsters in the past,

So how did you turn into the ones who would say the harshest remarks?

I was certain that though it all our bond would last,

When did we start losing our relationship's sparks?

How could you forget who I was because of someone else?

How could you turn sour because of a decision I had to make?

Now I find myself jumping through different rooms in lavish hotels,

Just to forget and heal myself from this heartache

I guess what hurts the most is that the doubts came from you,

When I knew you would trust me even without knowing the whole story

So forgive me now that I have to shield myself from your view,

I have to put you on the other side of these walls I've built, and for that I'm sorry