LITTLE SECRET ! , mikasa

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next day at school was rather slower than usual.

You went to your usual classes, did your assignments, talked to friends, and just genuinely had a good day.

When eighth period came around, also your free period, you noticed why it felt like such a slow day.

You hadn't seen Mikasa at all since yesterday night..

Now that you noticed it, you began to worry about it.. Your mind went to work on pointing out all of the red flags that you witnessed, that your lust filled brain had temporarily blurred away.

Mikasa left as soon as you had your fill..
She never got something of her own.

She simply played with you and walked away.

Your nails dug into your palm, you felt used.. But thats what you signed up for.. Why did it bother you so much? You agreed to the terms, you didn't even have a problem with them.

"One, this stays between us."

and

"No strings attached,"

You had no desire to tell, or share, this little secret with anyone else. You still have no desire too.

You didn't want any strings attached either, that was the last thing you wanted. You don't have time for any relationships, you also don't have love to give for a relationship.

But why did, going through with the whole thing, with the terms you agreed to, hurt?

Or why did you feel disappointed?

You shook your head, as if that would clear the thoughts in your head. You tried to relax in the couch, and you tried to focus on the book in your hand. You tried to focus on the story, on the words.

Every attempt, your mind couldn't comprehend it, you had to restart and restart, and restart—until you slammed the book close.

"fuck," You sighed quietly, quiet so nobody else in the library would hear.

You leaned back, your neck tipped against the couch cushion.

What were you going to do?

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In hopes of forgetting y/n, Mikasa pulled the pack of cigarettes from her bag. Yup, a good smoke should be able to get her mind off of things.

Lighting the cigarette, the pulled it to her lips, inhaling the smoke before exhaling it.

Yes, it helped calm her nerves, made her sink down into the concrete even more.
But the thought of you still lingered in the air..

Mikasa should've never asked you for this arrangement. She regretted it halfway through the act..

Mikasa never had the courage to let herself be with a woman, like she desired.. Until she was fueled with a lust.. for you.

It blinded her, made her actions unpredictable, even to herself.

"Fuck," Mikasa cursed to nobody, inhaling, and then exhaling smoke once again.

Once the cigarette got so small it burned her fingertips, she threw it to the ground, stepping on it for good measure..

With a clear expression, but with a cloggy mind, she headed back into the school..

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sorry for a short update, my stomach is killing me but yk i kinda have a streak of updating daily 😩