LITTLE SECRET ! , mikasa

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head remained fuzzy for the rest of your evening.

Rendering you incapable of focusing, your mind never fully remained your own until it was racing again.

"Ow, what the fuck?!"

Your neighborhood friend shot a rock at your shoulder. Stinging you back into reality.

"Come on.." They sighed. "You haven't been yourself all day." You finally turn to look at them. Said boy frowns when you look at him. His big blue eyes imploring you to tell him whats wrong..

I mean, what do you even tell him? Oh, your bestfriend fingered be on her couch! Oh, your childhood bestfriend asked if we could hook up?

You couldn't say any of that..

Instead, you sigh, and he sighs too.
"Is it classes?"

"No."

"Is it .. school?"

"No."

"Is it Historia?"

You frown even harder if possible, bad feelings and memories bubbling to the surface.

"No.."

A few months back, you and historia had this same ordeal that your doing with Mikasa right now.

Hooking up, figuring out what you want, who you want.

With Historia is was kept a secret, same with Mikasa, except Historia promised you were hers and she was yours.. Only to have a another girl the whole time..

So in simple words, she cheated.

And you never let yourself feel again.

But yet, here you were, going down that same path with Mikasa..

You know you should cut it off before it goes to far.. But last night felt so much more different than historia. She knew what she was doing, and you did too, now.

Maybe you should see how it plays out..

"Are you ever going to tell me?" He asks, knowingly.

You look up to the sky once more, "Maybe one day, Armin.." He's quiet again. And deep down he knows you'll tell him eventually as well.

Once its quieted down, and calm, just you and Armin on your front porch, watching the moon.

"I'll see you tomorrow Armin." You look to him, his face shoved to his palm. You smile. "Goodnight."

Armin nods, and stands up. You stand up with him. He pulls you into a soft hug, a comforting one. He knows you'll tell him sooner or later, probably later when its messy. But he's here for you.

"goodnight." He responds into your shoulder, then he pulls away.

Luckily Armin's house was just across the street, you watched as he went. You waited until the door shut, then you went inside your home.

You made your way to your room blindly, you vaguely remember peeling out of your clothes and getting in bed.

Then a peacefull, silent, sleep is left.

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The next morning at school was anything but peaceful, and silent.

It was loud. People were too loud. Maybe it was just your emotions that made everything seem much more louder, more agitating..

Armin was seated on your right, talking to his bestfriend Eren, Mikasa lingering beside them. Mikasa was here. Close to you.

You always sat with Armin, noticed his friends, but now this time. You knew one of his bestfriends too well.

Mikasa was dressed nicely. The usual white blouse, and tie, only difference was that she wore pants instead of the skirts.

You liked the look on her. She pulled a jacket over her shoulders, shifting until it was on her body comfortably.

Of course you watched, and usually you would force your gaze away, but you can't this time. It felt as if it would hurt to look away.

In the end, you did look away.

For your own good.

It was time to start the day.

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