Please Stay Alive || NI-KI ✔

four

He was planning and searching things on the internet. The most closet places for him to die. He wanted to leave so much. He could not wait. He could not wait at all. Riki took out his phone, played a song on his phone, quietly listening to it.

"Riki? It's time to go,"

"Go where?" Jay rolled his eyes.

"Practice, you goof," Riki sighed unhappily, got to his feet. He grabbed his dance bag and was ready to go. Go and die, he thought.

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Practice was practice like usual. Dancing, break, dancing, break. DANCE DANCE DANCE! Riki poured his heart and his pain into every single move he made.

"Wow, Riki, you're doing a fantastic job!" He wanted to glare at his hyung for complimenting him when he was actually having a hard time but instead, he forced a smile on his sweaty face and thanked his hyung.

"You're really good at dancing, Ni-ki," Sunoo smiled and patted him on the back.

If only they knew... It's my last day, I have to appreciate them. I hope they realize how much I love them. I love them a lot but they would do better without me. So much better. I'm not good enough, I'm a horrible dancer and singer and pretty much kpop idol. I'm so sad of living this way. Can't I just be happy? Is it too much to ask?

This is my last day. I'll be extra nice and be a good maknae for them. Oh, how much will they miss me when I'm gone? Or maybe they won't miss me. Maybe they'll move on quickly..

Riki got into position for Paradox and started to dance with the others but suddenly Sunoo collapsed making everyone say his name and run to his side. Riki immeaditely put his hyung's and close friend's head on his lap. He pushed his sweaty hair off his forehead and gently said his name.

"He's dehydrated, where's his water?" Sunghoon asked, looking around. Riki motioned over there and Jake got it and handed it to Sunghoon.

Jay looked around at everyone's concerned faces and decided it was time to take a break for now. Riki bit his lip thinking of how was his plan gonna go on if they were leaving early? It didn't matter now, all what mattered was that Sunoo had to be okay.

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I'm empty, help me. Riki was writing in his phone note app.

"Heyo, whatcha writing?" Heeseung asked him, peering over his shoulder. Riki immediately turned off his phone, putting it into his sweatpants pocket.

"Nothing hyung,"

"Do you want to help me with food?" Riki shrugged. "Are you okay, Riki?"

"Um... Yeah I guess I am."

"You haven't been acting like yourself,"

"Honestly I'm fine,"

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"All right that's it! RIKI!!" Riki rubbed his scratchy eyes and looked around to see two angry Enhypen members staring down at him.

"W-what's going on?" He asked, getting scared very quickly but not showing it on his face.

"Did you take my computer??" Jake asked, his arms crossed his chest. Riki shook his head no slowly. "Are you sure??"

"Why would I have it?"

"I don't know! Because you had it last! You were playing on it!" Riki again shook his head. Jake pointed his finger at him. "You better not be lying, maknae, so help me!" Riki felt extremely anxious. He honestly hated being yelled at- no one liked to be yelled at.

"I'm sorry hyung-"

"So you're admitting it!?"

"No, I'm just saying sorry hyung," Jake rolled his eyes and looked at Heeseung who shrugged.

"Aren't you supposed to be helping me in the kitchen?" Heeseung asked, raising an eyebrow. Riki opened his mouth but Jake started to get frustrated with him.

"Why are you so lazy??! You didn't help hyung with dinner like you said so! It's been an hour since then! We found you asleep! You're SO LAZY!" Jake boomed, his face red. Riki stared at him with wide eyes. His barrier that held all his feelings back and literally everything he held hidden came out.

He broke.

He got to his feet and started to yell at them.

"OH SHUT UP! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT! YOU'RE SO MEAN! I FORGOT ABOUT DINNER, OKAY?! I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY!" Riki screamed, liquid falling down his face. "I'm sorry! I don't mean to be lazy and useless! I DON'T MEAN TO!" Jake and Heeseung were so shocked at his outburst.

"You're grounded," Heeseung said simply. Riki groaned, throwing his hands up in anger. "Give me your phone, Ni-ki,"

"Please, hyung, I'm sorry, I just-"

"You don't have respect right now," Jake answered. "You need to chill out,"

"Hyungs! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get angry wit-" Riki cried, tears falling even more down his pale face. He was having a meltdown and no one would see it.

"What's all the yelling about?" The rest of the members rushed in and saw the three members staring at each other wide eyed. "What's wrong with Niki?"

"He yelled at Jake," Heeseung said with a disappointed look.

"I said I was sorry!" Riki insisted. "Please, hyung-" His hyungs all gave him disappointed looks. Again, he was useless and such a brat wasn't he?

"Why don't you understand!? Guys..." Heeseung snatched the maknae's phone out of his pocket and pointed to the bedroom. Riki shuffled his feet as he walked away, feeling everyone's eyes on him. He was a brat. Such a useless child. No one cared or needed him. He kept his head low and he saw tears fall into the carpet.

"He's a teenager, so he's just really hormonal that's all,"

"I hope he gets better, its making me sick with these mood swings,"

"Maybe a grounding will help him out,"

Once he couldn't see his family anymore, he began to run to the front door, he unlocked it and slammed it shut. He was going to kill himself now and then. His heart was too hurt and wounded to think otherwise.

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"Aish, that kid is going to be the death of me." Jay said, shaking his head when he heard the front door slam.

"We probably should go after him," Sunoo said groggily.

"You're in no position to go-" Suddenly a song started to play on Ni-ki's phone that Heeseung held.

"Isn't that Stay Alive?" Heeseung nodded and looked at the phone. The reminder was this: 'kms'

"What does that mean?" Jungwon wanted to know curiously. No one knew what it meant, they just stood there wondering what it could possibly mean.

"I know! It means kill myself!" Sunoo exclaimed in horror, his face draining from blood.

One of the members started to call the police and another one called Riki, but it kept saying 'no signal'.