FANFICTION When it just happens

Chapter 10 Episode 10 (18+)

Max POV

I just can't seem to get my head back.

Everything is upside down.

I can't control any instance inside me.

My mind is screaming at me to just leave.

Why am I giving this to myself?

This whole day has been a roller coaster.

And yet I realize exactly that this incident is somehow taking me too much.

I should back off and finally come clean.

Why am I running after him?

How far have I come?

While my mind is whining, my body is just doing what it wants.

I can't do anything about it.

My legs are going their way.

They just run along in his direction.

And the way he holds my hand.

And that smile.

My body knows more than I do.

I can feel that very clearly.

Like all the other things I feel.

That are getting to me.

A burning flame spears my insides at regular intervals.

I see Nat with another.

A movie is constantly playing in my head.

I want to know.

I want to know everything.

What was he doing with him?

How did he look at him?

Did he smile at him like that, too?

And when their lips meet, my stomach cramps.

I don't want to see those images.

And the next moment he approaches me.

Why are you so tender with me today, Nat?

How can you do this to me?

What am I supposed to do?

And Nat pushes me down on his bed.

I just sit down.

Uncontrolled.

He can do whatever he wants to me.

Why don't you obey, body?

"I'm going to disappear into the kitchen for a minute. You make yourself comfortable!" his lips form.

Those lips.

And again, the horrible image in my head.

And I see my hand lift and just reach for him.

I grab him by the waist and pull him back.

And with all my might, I stop myself from pulling him onto my lap.

I want him to sit down next to me.

"I'm not hungry!", I hear myself say.

My tone is calm and firm.

How am I getting this right now?

I have such loud feelings and thoughts bubbling up inside me.

Nat is looking at me.