the last piece to my broken puzzle

chapter 10

WAS UP THE CHAPTER COVER I DREW OFC AND ITS ONE OF THEIR ALBUM COVERS SIGNED BY THEM ITS THEIR NEVER LONELY ALBUM (I MADE UP FOR THE SAKE OF THE DRAWING) SECOND UPDATE TODAY I ,OVE WRITING THESE FOR YOU GUYS AND JUST TO WRITE ANYGAY ENOUGH OF THAT ITS IN V POZ AGAIN DUH ENJOY~~~. ALSO WARNING- PANIC ATTACK YELLING MENTION OF ABUSE

me and roman eventually fell asleep watching disney i woke up 5 mins after we fell asleep i carefully untangled my self we were cuddling!! i could feel my cheeks heat up i pulled the blanket over roman and picked up our dishes and checked the time it was 4 am i walk to the lundry room and start a batch of cloths. and walk back out i walk to my room to get dressed i meet my rabbit sleeping on my bed i walk up and pet him hes so soft. i stop and close my door and walk to my closet i finally chose to wear

something like that ig without boobs ofc to

once i was dressed i walked back out to the living room to grab my phone then to the bathroom and i then it hit me roman saw me without make up none no make up my anxiety rose what if he thought i was ugly or he didnt say anything to hurt my feelings what if he thinks im hideous what if he accdently saw my eye oh no then the panic attack started i hurridly closed the bathroom door backing away my breathing hitched tears down my face once i hit the wall i slid down it i hugged my legs to my chest and began sobbing trying to calm my self down what if he thought it was hideous i mean it is what if he was scared the questions hed ask .roman then came and opened the door slowly then he saw me on the floor i didnt notice him at first once he saw it was me he rushed tward me and began hugging me tightly i jumped at first then i hugged him back tightly sobbing in his arms brething heviely he began to whisper sweet nothings in my ear "its ok its ok virgil your safe i promise" stuff like that i slowly began to calm down tear stains on my face my eye red and puffy i looked up to see him "t-thx roman" i said breaking the hug and wiping my eye. "np virgil but if your ok with telling me why you had a panic attack?" roman asked i looked down then positiond myself so im hugging my legs and am leaning on the tub. "i-i have sever anxiety and depression so when i get a bad thought even if its tiny that one thought makes a million different bad ones and i end up leading myself to a panic attack i-i try not to ofc but its difficult and i cant take meds bc the dr. said if i do it seem like id be high bc the meds would have to be so high." i looked at the ground and wiped my eyes. roman looked .... sad? "oh well what was that one bad thought?" he asked i looked at him and blushed "i- well um i  um wear make up and last night i took it off ofc and i forgot to put it back on when u came and i have a scar on my left eye that my hair covers and it ugly and i was worring if u saw it thought i was ugly without makeup" i said getting quieter and Quieter."oh virgil, i could never think your ugly i acctually think your quite gorgeous might i say and scars show what youve been through it tells your story. i understand you might think that of yourself witch makes me sad but i surely dont rathe ri think the oppisite."roman concluded and i blushed bright red and hide my face in my arms. roman chucled and pulled my hands from my face and we stared into each others eyes his emerld green eyes we gorgeous i could stare into them all day.then he went to put my hair behind my ear the hair that hides my scar i slapped his hand away on instict and stared in shocked then i clicked what i did and i imdently bagan a wave of applogises and that it was an instict that i didnt mean it.i didnt even notice him saying my name until."VIRGIL!" roman yelled i flinched and he grabbed my hands " i forgive you i understand it was and instict tho i should have asked first aswell ." roman then kissed my hand . i blushed and giggled. roman smiled at me a loving smile i loved it it made my heart swell. i fell hard for this man i fell hard. " virgil may i see your scar pls?" roman said i hestated 

i pulled my hair behind my ear and showed him my eye.he gasped and went to put his hand on my check i jumped then allowed him."oh virgil i-i what happend to you?" roman asked his voice filled with concern."its hard to explain but lets just say my dad didnt like ..... me" i said looking at the floor i looked back at roman and saw .... tears?"r-roman why are you crying?!" i moved on my knees."bc like why would a parent do this to their child?!" roman said crying. "roman its ok im fine i just cant see out of it thats all." i replied "thats all?! virgil your blind in your left bc of your father!" roman was crying "roman pls! pls stop yelling!" i said crying and holding my ears roman stoped it was dead silent then..."daddy always hurt bubby as wong as i can wember." i looked up shocked so did roman "what?" roman said voice craking."mhm dady would throw bweer bowttles or hit bubby or touch bubby in pwivite places-" i cut her off "nataleigh thats enough." i said in a monotone voice."but bubby-" i cut her off again"nataleigh i said thats enough." i looked at her "no." she said and walked closer holding melodys hand "nataleigh stop." i said "no bubby he wan help you!" she said "no he cant nataleigh." i said looking at her "yes he can bubby! he would wind out enetually anyway!" she said then i snapped " NATALEIGHT JUST SHUT UP! HE CANT HELP ME NO ONE CAN IM STUCK!" i yelled and began sobbing.