Phan

What's wrong?

----Chris(crabstickz)'s point of view----

I saw Phil today, he seemed as devastated as ever. The only person he would let come within 3 meters of him was Dan. Dan just sat with him all day today. Holding each other together. In silence. Any mention of what happened a few days ago would only being him further down, the hole he'd dug would only come further down. It already seemed like there was no way out.

"Another brew?" I asked Dan. He looked at Phil who nodded slightly. Dan looked at me, smiled and mouthed "two, please." I went to boil the kettle. Peej walked in and looked at me. He walked over to me and put his arms around my waist from behind me and hugged me. I looked at him, clearly chuffed. And I felt it too, but then I realised where we were again. "Not now Peej, Dan and Phil, remember?" We knew they were a couple. We knew they were but we couldn't tell them quite yet about us. They needed for them to be quiet centre of attention, otherwise we weren't sure what was going to happen. I pecked PJ on the lips quietly and he went to show Phil some new DVD's he bought just for him.

Phil smiled thoughtfully at Peej, sadness still hid most other emotions from face. But it was good he was getting better.

There was something else about that little girl that no one understood except Phil. Everyone KNEW there was, but what no-one knew was WHAT it was. Only Phil.

Phil sat up and grabbed the DVD's from PJ's hand and leapt onto the floor towards the DVD player. Dan looked at Phil, he tried to stifle a chuckle as Phil meeped slightly out of joy at the sight of the DVD sliding into the DVD player. Dan then looked at me and Peej standing together, at first a smile of thanks crowded his face, then he smiled a smile of a sort of 'I knew it' kind of thing. He was looking at me and Peej standing together, his arms around my waist again, mine around his neck. Phil turned around too. "Wow." He laughed, Dan laughed too. Me and Peej looked awkwardly at each other. "No, don't let us bother you! We're watching BUFFY!" Phil exclaimed.

----Dan's POV----

As much as I was happy for Phil that he was already getting his strength back, I was worried. I felt he was cramming something deep inside him. Something horrible. But I was going to try and let that pass, I just needed for Phil to be happy, without his happiness he is pretty much no one. And I was glad that Peej and Chris were here too to support me and, more importantly, Phil.

He was always in a good mood during Buffy. Even when he was watching the scary parts. But what scared me was just how immensely he was taking it all in. He was being too distracted by the movie. I looked over at PJ and Chris who seemed to be thinking the same. I pulled out my phone and texted PJ:

Me: Do you think anything seems to be wrong with Phil? He seems to be acting really odd...

As I pressed send Phil shouted out "No Buffy! That's the vampire!"

Peej: yeah... I'm really scared something else happened when he saw Kate

Me: I know. When we were looking at her, after she died, to say our last goodbyes, Phil just looked at her. He stared a While and said that they were the same. That they were each other. You and me are the only ones who know he said that now.

Peej: and Chris, he's looking over my shoulder

I spotted Chris now looking at me, with his arms hung around Peej. He seemed to be quite concerned too.

Chris opened a group conversation.

Chris: so is he in denial?

Me: seems so

Chris: what's wrong with him?

Peej: well what if he saw so much of himself in Kate that when he realised that she was gone, he felt a part of him was dead too?

Me: could be...

Chris: we're sorry Dan, we'll be here for you guys

Peej: yeah

Me: thanks, but if you were to give me the real help I needed, you would be just as depressed as me

Chris: well you're a very good actor, if you're as depressed as you say you are

Me: I'm staying strong

Peej: good! And we're right behind you

Chris: but you need to talk to him don't forget, you need to ask him subtly though

Me: but how do you suggest I do that?!

Chris: take him to her grave, but make it seem like its a day out doing fun stuff, go places you guys like to go, take a walk or something.

Me: but I'm scared he'll flip out, what do I do if he does?

Peej: just stay calm, it'll just be him letting out his sadness, his secrets

So we planned to take Phil out the next day. We were a little unsure of how he was going to react the the day, but hopefully it was going to work.