Stressed

What Happened After

Madison's POV

"I want to die I want to die" I whisper rocking back and forth after the kit was over and my mom was holding me in her arms.

"Listen baby I know you are scared and afraid but mommy is here and I will never let you go again because you mean the world to me" my mom smiles at me sadly and kisses my head. I flinch.

"Mommy?" I whisper looking up at her with scared eyes.

"I know baby I know but it's all gonna be alright he's dead" She smiles and rocks me in her arms like I'm a little baby and I secretly love it

"Was he my dad?" I ask scared of the answer.

"He was... I dont know how because he was supposed to be dead

"Well clearly he wasn't!" I cry out and shove her away

"Baby please talk to me" my mom whispers softly before tears stream down her cheeks.

"No leave me alone I hate you! YOU NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT MY DAD HE IS A RAPIST!" I scream loudly and shove her off the bed completely using all of my strength

Olivia's POV

Maddie shoves me and I hit the ground with a hard thump. I groan and grab my hip.

"You know I just want to help you I am your mother" I whisper

"Tell me about my father!" She shouts back at me with such anger.

"He's a bad man I didn't want you around that he was supposed to be dead they told me he died in a car crash !" I cried out.

"So I'm just like you some huge mistake. Maybe that's why you hate me because I'm a product of a rape." she croaked holding back tears not looking me in the eye.

Hearing those words broke my heart into a million tiny pieces. I love my daughter so much and I tried to protect her but I couldn't and she was raped by her father and I couldn't save her I'm such a bad parent.

Flashback
2001
Brandon smiles at me and puts his hands on my thighs and moves closer to me sipping his vodka tonic.

"You know I love you" I ask smiling at my wonderful boyfriend we started going out a few months ago but we didn't do anything serious yet.

Brandon slowly got drunk and when he was so out of it he could barely walk I helped him into a cab kissing him the whole way to his house.

End of flashback

I look at Maddie who was staring at me still waiting for answers

"I..I don't know what to say" I whisper still trying to shake the images out of my head.

"WHO WAS HE AND AND AND EVERYTHING! I DESERVED TO KNOW!" She screams and kicks her legs and shuts her eyes super tight.

"Baby calm down" I whisper softly and I stand up and sit on the edge of the bed holding her legs down gently but with enough force so she doesn't kick me in the face.

"I'm sorry just please I need to know" she cries and looks down and plays with the blanket.

I hug her and lay next to her as I whisper reassuring words to her.

"He was a good man a first then he found drugs and booze." I whisper she listens attentively

"Then he got violent he would
Hit me and then he started
To rape me I couldn't stop it. I was so young and in denial of everything. I kept thinking he will change for our baby I know he will." tears stream down my cheeks "For a while he stopped drugs and drinking for you but six months into my Pregnancy I could barely walk and Elliot was the only one there for me, Brandon was out drinking or having sex with his prostitutes. El helped me I consider him your father. He helped me babysit you, when I would feed you he would help, he changed your diapers with me. You're first word was dada and you looked at Elliot.We considered it a friend thing but now it's different we are together and I know you want a father figure and I think Elliot  can help you through this trauma because baby girl I can't do it all by my self.

Maddie looks down taking in all of the information.

"Baby please talk to me" I move closer hugging her.

"No" she looks down and rolls over.

"I hate you" she says with a nasty attitude.

"But...but...but..." I try and speak but I can't. I was to broken and I just lay next to her empty. I have nothing without Maddie. I need her almost more than she needs me.