COLLIDED

VI

Irene's pov:

As the cold air touches my skin, I can also feel the headache that was brought by the alcohol that I drank last night. My head hurts like hell, it feels like the veins inside my head will just pop anytime soon because of the pain.

I was trying to move when I felt that there's something I can feel inside me. It was really the worst feeling ever. Enduring your headache and trying to process everything that happened last night which causes my head to hurt even more because I'm forcing myself to remember what I have done last night, which I knew was wrong and would be my biggest regret.

As I slowly open my eyes, I was shocked when I saw a different but familiar ceiling, which I knew that isn't mine and know's whose. Freak! Is he the man lastnight!?

I can still feel him inside me. Gosh! How dare him! He didn't even remove his in me.

I was hesitant to face and take a look at the person beside me, because I'm afraid to the fact that he might be this person whom I avoided for a very long time.

I'm sure he was.

But I have no choice but to take a look at him just to make sure he really was this person. And I was right. He is.

My tears slowly fell down when I saw him. I don't understand what I feel right now. I want to scream in anger, disbelief, disappointment, and stupidity.

Fuck Irene! You're not thinking! What have you done again??? Why did you let this man own you for the second time? Why did you drown yourself with alcohol and let this happen? Why did you surrender yourself again!?

These are just few of the thousands of thoughts and questions that are popping in my head right now. I do hate myself and just wanna curse my whole existence for being this stupid.

After a minute of crying and blaming myself, I tried to move again. But this time, I wanna let myself out from this room which brings back a lot of memories that I've already burried at my past.

And also wanna let him out of me. Fuck him.

As I moved slowly trying to slipped out from his bed, I successfully let his thing out of me. Gosh!

Then I slowly stood up and searched for my undergarments and of course, my dress.

I walked slowly as I don't want to make any noise that might wake him up. I tried searching for my undergarments first. And thank god I found it. It was on the staircase. Wow! Look what I've done.

Next I searched for my dress and I found it. It was on the sofa. WTF!! Did we just....make out here!?

Enough! I cannot with this.

I just picked my dress up and was about to wear it but then I remembered my bag. Where the hell it is!?

I was starting to get pissed because I cannot find it anywhere down here. I searched for it in every corner of his house but I failed. So I don't have a choice but to go back into his room, hoping it was there.

As I entered his room, I slowly closed his door again. I tried searching for it everywhere, but still I can't find it. Fuck! Where it is? I cannot lost it! My phone was in there and there are lots of important work and personal related files in it, so I cannot lost it.

This is insane.

I was out of my mind and don't know what to do anymore, so I just get the blanket from his bed, and covered my naked body instead of wearing my undergarments and fixing myself. Stupid.