i see white. my head throbs as it flashes. i hear ringing along with shouting. i feel like i'm in a car going two hundred miles an hour.
i smell mamma. i feel hot yet so cold. my stomach pinches and i cringe. what's happening?
m y
h e a d
h u r t s
vi förlorar henne. rensa vägen! nödsituation!
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kom igen, Athena.
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i feel myself get shocked, and the light gets much brighter. i feel even lighter than i did before. my whole body aches, and i feel something coming out of my mouth. i feel my body start to shake.
i hear someone say cpr... flatline... weak pulse...
i see my life replay, i see mamma and i. i see pappa. i see me. and i feel comforted.
my legs become numb, and ive never felt colder. i feel like a balloon floating
up
u p
u p
until you can't see it anymore. or a star, shining until daylight hits. i see a dog. then a cat. then i see the future i always imagined. i see him, with brielle and amara. i smile and walk towards them.
behind me, i hear a voice talking to me. telling me not to give up. to keep breathing. to come back. but i can't. i haven't felt this way in a long time.
i feel happy.
my heart then starts feeling heavy, and i feel something pressing on it. i want to tell it to stop, but i can't seem to speak. stop touching me. stop touching me. let me be. i hear beeping. lots of beeping.
i wonder where pappa is. who's hands are these? what just shocked me? why do i feel so cold? where am i? why are they shouting?
vi förlorade din mamma, vi förlorar dig inte.
who said anything about losing me? who's we? i feel like i'm in a dream. and i never wanna wake up. so i take a deep breath and walk towards my family.
a family who loves me.
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athena
Short Storya diary she fills with her life. TW: ed, abuse, alcoholism, guns, drugs, r*pe, lots of suicidal thoughts, mentions of sh+doing, body dysmorphia, mentions of death. beware, these are serious topics, and please don't talk about them if you haven't exp...
