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The End....Maybe

Well it is the probably the end of my JEE prep .I have the exam tomorrow(writing this on 28th 2:00 a.m.) and I thought why not water this barren land.I have always complained about JEE prep ,mock tests, pressure and JEE but today as I sit here I cannot but feel sad as this phase of my life is ending.I am happy because finally I will have some mental peace atleast for 2 months after Advanced but I will miss this part as hell.I will miss my teachers the most because without them I would not have done shit.I will miss my school(a teeny tiny bit) because well ,it was more like an escape for me.I will always treasure this period as the most memorable one because GOSH!! What A RollerCoaster It Was.

I may not get the desired college this time(0.01% probability).In that case ofcourse I will take a drop year but still it will not be the same.It will not be that rigourous.It will just be some normal slogging for 5 months afer which I will again give the exams which I most probably will ace.

I am writing all this jot to look cool or anything.I just wrote this because I was feeling a lot of emotions and it felt necessary to vent.I don't kinda trust my parents with venting because even though they are very supportive,they are not able to help me and I don't have the heart to tell them that thier advice is futile and so I just keep it to myself.

The last day I was crying because I felt like a total faliure and my mum after 20 minutes of me crying asked me why I was crying and I told her it was just the balm(my head was aching) and well she agreed.It feels bad to lie to her but if I tell her the truth she will take unnecessary stress which I don't want.It is just that it isn't as easy at feels to to just cry it out.

Well I think this venting has gone on for too long and now I should stop.Wish me luck😬😬