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kaaliii

"Are beta koi baat nahi tum tum kaali ho to kya hua...inner beauty is what matters."This is probably that one line almost every dark Indian girl has heard atleast once.While inner beauty does matter , such statements imply that we are not *sundar*.

My mom always told me ki "dimaag se farak padta hai chehre se nahi".Dude whatt??!! You literally told your daughter that look,you are not beautiful so compensate for it with your brains(at that time studies).At that time ,while it made feel good about myself it made me less confident.

My Father has a transferrable job so I had to regularly change schools.Whenever I went to a new school I always thought to myself that okay, I am intelligent but the first thing a person will see is my face and 'since' I am not beautiful they will not talk to me and not befriend me.This is legit what went through my mind AND I WAS A 6 YEAR OLD KID.

As a kid I was always made to think that being dark means not being beautiful and damn..kids my age(6-9 years) have literally called me kaali on my face.Some didn't even want to be my friends because I was kaali.

My mum at that time told me that I always played outside in the sun and that is why is was kaali and I regretted playing in the sun.Also to remind y'all I was 6-7 at that time.

I had a really traumatic childhood in this sense bacause I literally thought that I was not beautiful and that is what gave me body image issues too .I thought I was not able to make many friends because I was dark skinned.I literally thought of it to be a defect in me.

While people think that they are comforting us by saying looks don't matter they are literally just making us feel less beautiful and underconfident.

But then again there people who literally say" Sundar to hai bas colour thoda down hai" and trust me,I had heard this too and that too when I was 9 by a really close family friend who still comes and tells me"are baklol101(i.e. name) tum to bohot moti ho gayi ho".Now I just choose to ignore her because Bhains ke aage lya been bajana but it breaks my heart to think that she is mother of two girls and this is what she teaches them.

As of my mother she still does not understands what was wrong with her statements but yes she does understand that being dark does not mean that I am not beautiful and yes she is trying to change her beliefs(unlike that bitchy Aunty)(sorry but I really detest her :p).

To bacchon hamne seekha ki Dark is beautiful too.