It sucks to say this, but all this time later I still am not okay. I am so sad and unmotivated. It's like it got worse. I don't know what to do to make me better. I have small things that bring me joy but the moments are fleeting and never last very long. Then I'm pushed back into my thoughts. And my mind is not a space I want to continue to live in. At least not now. Not while I'm still sad as I am. I can't even say I have a reason to feel like this. I've done everything I said I wanted to do up to this point. And yet nothing is ever enough for me. I want to stop feeling this way.
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