Jamike: Infinity

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[Song in the media is My Immortal by Evanescence, which I've been listening to since I started writing this book, because, yeah, I planned Jamie's fate. Listen to it to the +++ if you want intense feels]
[Warning: Strong suicidal material and feels]

The funeral was short.

There were only three people there, me, Macey and Jamie's mother. Her father disappeared when she was three. When we had to read our eulogies, her mother said nothing, nor did I. I had one written out, about how she never gave up hope in the darkest times and how much of a friend she was to me, but I was chocking on tears so much I couldn't say a word. They buried her mask, but nothing else as I walked away in the rain.

The days without her turned from loneliness to torture. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Jamie, when we met and when she died. I couldn't sleep each night without crying from the memory of her. Macey came everyday to check up on me. I never said anything to her.

My life fell downhill from there. I quit my half-time job, and spent most of the day screaming about how I could of saved her. Why did it have to her? Why couldn't it have been me? Why?! She deserves life more than me!

She soon started to appear everywhere. Every time I opened a book, turned on the TV, turned around corner. She always there. I stopped eating or drinking, every bite reminding me of the waitress I met at that restaurant. I locked myself in my room, the whole house seeming to scream her name. There was nothing I could do than just sit through the torture of seeing her die.

Eventually I thought about plans for suicide. Who would live like this? I could rob a bank and let the police shoot me. I could jump off a building, letting everyone see me die. I could just get the gun I had from trying to stop Fritz and shoot myself below the jaw. Snap my own neck, quick and quiet.

Or just do it the old-fashioned way. Hang myself. I was good at tying knots. It could just be like that old riddle, I get an ice block with a noose around my head, wait till it melts. It would melt in time before Macey knocked down my door.

In only thirty seconds, I set up the noose. Jamie's voice screamed in my head, but I didn't care. I couldn't do this anymore. I climbed up on the bed and put the noose around my head. When I jump will be all over. Three... Two... O-

I then saw something shine out of the corner of my eye. I take the noose of my head. I went over to the place I saw the shine and saw the the napkin Jamie gave me right before she died. I patted it as a way of saying goodbye to her and felt something hard inside. I reached in saw it was the SD card Maria gave me while we were in prison. I stared at it and thought that maybe I should listen to Jamie's voice one last time, so I knew what to listen out for in the afterlife.

I got my new phone and popped the card in it. I turned the volume all the way up and pressed the last voice mail message the card had received. From Jamie. Tears flowed down my face as I heard her voice once more.

"Hello, Mike? Are you there? I just- okay, here I go... Mike, I know the last couple months has been had for you, and I'm I've kept you company... but I feel like I need to move on... you know... to a better place, and I know I will be okay. And, even of if I won't be there when you answer a call, know that I will always be you, okay? You were the one that tried to save me when I died, the one who reminded me I was never alone, my one and only true friend...

"You are Mike, and that's all you need to be. You. Nothing other than that. Because you... are perfect. It's the one thing I truly love about you. And if I die in a fire, or in that restaurant, right here, right now, in this very phone... I will never forget you... for all Infinity... I- I need to go... I lo-"

I found myself crying so hard that day. Macey did eventually knock down my door to find me like this, starved and traumatised, my eyes probably puffy and red from crying. She wasn't able to get me out of the house, but she stayed with me until she was sure I was okay.

When I did stop crying, I realised something. Jamie wouldn't want to die. She would want me to live life to my full potential. Just because she died doesn't mean I was to die too. "You are Mike, and that's all you need to be. You. Nothing other than that. Because you... are perfect. It's the one thing I truly love about you." She loved because I was living life. Did I give up on life after those five nights at Freddy's? No. I stuck with it to the very end. And will I stay with Jamie too. I stayed with her and she was fine with that, a guy who tried to save her or not. That was what was important.
Not because of what I was, but of who I was.

I was going to beat this depression. With Jamie or without her in life. Her speech didn't totally heal me, but it was a jumpstart, a boost. I just kept telling myself those ten words; "You are Mike, and that's all you need to be."

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{Two weeks later...}

I eventually decided I needed to help people. Just like Jeremy helped me. I thought back to my five nights. People needed to know this. Fritz was still out there. How did I know that? The police found traces of Jamie's animatronic body and later arrested a-revealed-be-alive Vincent. However, even though Fritz's badge was found, there were no other traces to him. I thought that if Fritz would ever try to anything ever again, people needed to know.

I sat on my doorstep. Thinking of the whole horrifying adventure I had in those first five nights. Macey passed me, her broken arm still in a cast, about to hop in her car.

"Mike, you sure you don't want to come? It's Cole Goodrich's 18th birthday party for god sake!" Macey said. I shook my head. Then I got an idea.

"What does Cole do again?" I asked her.

"Uh, write books online, I think," Macey said unsurely.

"Can you ask him if he would want to see me for a story opportunity?" I asked her.

"Sure, Mike. You sure you are okay?" Macey asked. I nodded.

"I'm sure Mace. You are the best sister I could ever have, you know that?" I told her.

"Thanks Mike," she said smiling as she drove off.

I got a notepad and pen, chewing the end of it as I tried to think back to my five nights at Freddy's. I lightbulb clicked on in my head as I wrote at the top of the page, "Five Nights at Freddy's".

I thought back to my first night. Then back to my interview, then to the newspaper ad. I stopped as I saw the memory clear in my head, smiling as I remembered the first thing Macey yelled at me when I sat front of that TV. I scribbled it down...

"C'mon, Mike!" Macey told me. "You can't sit on this couch forever!"

...and I knew it would be the next best decision of my life.