the chaos trio

Please forgive me

TW\\ therapy,trauma,suicide, self harm along with sexual abuse

Hi I'm Danny let me explain why I'm currently sitting in my therapist office I usually never went even through I had a therapist it wasn't in my plans to survive the attempt on my life a week ago but I felt helpless to save myself i was hurting people around me including myself

I don't remember when I felt like this I felt helpless to save myself from the dark thoughts I had I remembered nothing from my childhood even into my teenage years 

I was never good at making friends I was always in the corner reading or writing stories about better things it just never had sense why anyone had friends

Until I met someone who completed me he used to sit in the corner of my room with me well until he went away because I was forced by my family to take meds I always tried to go off them but I ended up getting horribly sick

I hated my family they all thought I was crazy (spoiler I'm not I got diagnosed with schizophrenia a year ago) I knew he was real my dumb family didn't believe me I heard the door open to my room it was my dad he hits me and sexually abuses me when my mom isn't around just my fucking luck she isn't around fuck time to brace myself shit he didn't hit me he just left a teddy bear and some candy along with a card

this was different he never did that for me he usually would hit me till I would pass out I would wake up to him fondling me I decided to read the card

My dear son I know I haven't been the best father to you but when you tried to kill yourself I had a change of heart I don't want you to die I want to get to know you in a son way I hope you can forgive me - love dad

Well this is interesting why the sudden change of heart fuck him he destroyed my childhood and teenage years

Two years later

I have been put on new meds and they seem to help I don't see arny anymore but I guess I can't help that but I feel better but I wish arny was real but ehh I'm fine with it

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