"Now, where is my uniform? Did you give it to the profesor?"
"I brought it and I gave it to him."
"Good! If we lose points this time, we will die!!"
It was the first greeting from my classmate. To be honest, I wanted to say "Yes, you will die, while my grades will be fine." But I was not brave enough to say it so I just lowered my head and obey. To be honest, I have no right to be against anyone. I am a common person, ignored by everyone almost always. They remember me when they have college assingments or research. Yes, I am easy to use. They use me and when I am useful, they throw me away when they get what they want. There is no need for verbal communication.
It is not easy for me to be sociable with others. Have I told you how do I look and how is my personality? That is the reason. Who wants to be friends with a nerd like me? My only friend is a senior that has a different career than me but we meet lot of times at the cofeeshop and we end up friends. My world is so narrow that I have no desire or need to expand my grey world.
"You! Mueang Nan is here. You can win your idol easily!" I turn my head and the voice caught my attention. Lot of the guys from the Medicine Faculty are standing nearby, looking to the Little bodies that were climbing up the stairs in a group of friends.
It was Nan, the Star of the Farmacy Department that everybody knew. And the most important thing is that he actually is in the same class as me. Although is just one (Cuantitive chemistry analysis). I like chemistry very much.
BUUUKK
"Aww..."
"Are you okay?" the man with a blowfish face run towards the Little man, as he fakes to landng on his knees and knocks a book.
The look in the eyes of the Star was not even interested. He just looked and picked up the book and continue walking. The plan to get his attention was clearly fake. Anyone who believed it, was stupid enough not to notice.
"No problem. I know you didn't mean it."
Glek!
But Nan seemed to believe it. I felt like dying, my God. With a tall body and atractive face, this person was just ignored and Nan laughed at him. What about me?
I am just a regular person that no one even notice his existence. So, how can he see me?
"Hello, my name is Pee. I am in the second year of the Odontology department and I take a class with you. I liked you since a long time. Can you maybe consider me?
Oh... Imagine that!!! At the end, he might make fun of me because I took it too far and I was not where I was supposed to be.
For me, Mueang Nan is like a "Fish upon the sky", one-sided love that cannot come true. Who can touch a fish upon the sky or see a star under water? It's like... Our love expectations are zero.
"We are in the same class. Sit and let me pick up and bring you that book." That huge face kept getting near him with a fake attention non stop. My mouth was itching and tingling.
"It's okay. I will sit with my friend." He pointed to a group of guys that were inside.
"ah, yeah"
His tall body let space for the Little person so he can get in. I could just follow the shadow of the Little back, imagining that if I could reach my hand to touch that soft shoulder once, the smell left on my body would be like a white rose, it may last sweet all night long.
"Err... What are you waiting for? Are you standing on your toes cause you wanna pee? Will you go inside, idiot?"
I got rid of the cute picture in my mind and I came back to the real world. I am not handsome, I am stupid, my glasses are thick, all my teeth are covered with braces. Now what?
