Recovery

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I don't want to be here,

If I can't be with you

Tonight...

-Lay Me Down - Sam Smith.
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The loud sound of my ringtone woke me up from my slumber. The most peaceful one I've had in a while.

It was my mother on the line. She asked if I needed to be picked up. I told her I'd manage and let her know that I might even spend the night here.

I walk out the room, walk up the stairs. I find Ben's mum and dad sitting on the dinning table, gazing at a few papers sprawled upon the table.

"Amelia? I didn't know you were her. Jess why didn't you tell me? So relieved to see you honey. Honestly speaking I didn't think I'd be seeing you here for a long time."

"I thought you knew me better than that. I missed you so much. You're my family too, how can I stay away?"

I walk around the table and am immediately engulfed in a hug. Ben's dad, David and I are like best friends. He is super fun and he's just so cool. He has the mind of a youngster. Also he gives the best hugs.

"Is it okay if I stay here for the night?"

"Sweetie, you know you can, you don't have to ask. Are you hungry? Shall I fix something for you?"

"No, It's fine. Not very hungry. I guess I'll just head to bed."

After exchanging hugs and 'good nights' I went back downstairs to our room. I just look around this amazing room we had created for ourselves. Pictures, posters, a bed, a TV, a music system, a tiny couch and my favourite, his medals and trophies. It took up a whole side of the room.

He played for our school football team. Captain. He was exceptional. I was so proud of him. So proud and I told him every chance I got. He wasn't very keen on putting up his achievements on display, but I didn't listen to him. Speaking of which, I have to meet his team mates and friends. They must be devastated too.

As I moved across the room, I found myself standing in front of the small drawer cupboard. On top of it was a board of more photos. But this one was importance to me. The thing is that I loved one direction. I still do, so much that some people thought I was scary.

Ben never said anything about it though. He didn't particularly like them but learned not to hate them for me. He was an angel. To put in a way the present day teenagers would understand; he was boyfriend goals.

[RECALLING A MEMORY(not a flashback though) ]:

When the story of my life video was going to release, I was out of town. I was travelling with my family. I tried to avoid the trip. Tried to explain to my folks that I had to be there to watch the video but no they didn't listen. I was so upset.

When I was back from my trip, Ben insisted that I watch the video in his place. I was crying, naturally and watched the video over and over again until he snatched the laptop out of my hand.

He said he had a surprise for me downstairs.

When we reached the bottom of the stairs he covered my eyes and lead me into the room.

When I opened my eyes, there was a big board with '1D' put together with the boys' pictures.

Wow that was one thing I can never ever ever forget. I mean most boys make fun of one direction, he wasn't much of a fan either but he watched all their videos with me when I wanted to, he even took me to one of their concerts.

That was one experience I won't be able to forget. I was a crying mess, naturally, Ben just held me and didn't say word about how stupid I was being, or how they are just a band and it's foolish of me to cry over a band. He kissed me long and hard during Little Things. That was by far the cutest thing ever.

GOALS.

How does he expect me to move on? If only the memories didn't sting so much.

Why did you leave me Ben?

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Heyo folks.

I know I know I didn't update in a month. Oops.

But seriously I'm sorry. So much has happened in this time I don't where to start.

Also I almost died bc I was supposed to go to Nepal on 26th and there was an earthquake on 25th. Just 24 hours. I don't even wanna imagine what would've happened if we were there. *shudders*

I'm sorry I haven't updated. Also sorry that this chapter is so small and stupid. I initially had a very different idea for this but I deleted it and changed so much. So I'm sorry. I'll post the next one ASAP.

Okay bye.

Thank you so much for reading x. Vote and comment if you liked it. Also please tell me how it was. Open to criticism😁

Love you💘

-Smruthi x