five days
"i think we should break up."
the words spilled from taehyun's mouth in a quick splurge and beomgyu wouldn't have even caught what was said had he not been looking directly at taehyun when he'd said it.
they were sat across from eachother in the small dining room of their shared dorm. their other members had gone to bed already and left the two alone, soobin already knowing what was going to happen.
"you've distanced yourself from me and thats okay. but i can't sit here and beg you to love me anymore if you're just going to ignore me," taehyun said coldly, voice cracking between a few of the words as he stared at the man he loved and cared for so deeply.
"okay" beomgyu responded.
"okay? thats it. thats all i get is a fucking okay ?" taehyun shook his head. he was baffled by beomgyu's state. he thought for sure he would've cried or atleast fought for him.
"yeah" beomgyu said.
"you know what...I should've never loved you to begin with. you didn't deserve it," taehyun angrily stated while standing up from the table and folding his arms over his chest.
"i hope you realize you're the one who ruins things. not everyone else," the younger male spat before turning on his heels and going down the hall to his room, slamming the door shut.
hes right
you do ruin things
you ruin everything beomgyu
"god damnit" beomgyu cried quietly, hitting his fists against his forehead.
can't handle the truth?
just face it beomgyu
you're a waste of space
"stop it" he whimpered, clenching his eyes shut as he covered his ears. he wanted the voices to stop. to make them go away and never come back. he wished it would all stop. that he didn't have to feel anything anymore.
you're stuck with me beomgyu
you worthless boy
nobody will ever care about you
"make it stop!" he cried, kicking his feet and shaking his head as a pair of arms pulled his tiny body into a tight hug. their hands rubbed small circles along his back as beomgyu practically screamed into their shoulder.
"its okay beomgyu," yeonjun whispered, trying his best to soothe the male "i've got you okay? hyung's got you..."
beomgyu wrapped his arms around yeonjun as his cries became quieter. the voices had dissipated as he let yeonjun's voice take over his mind. if he was with yeonjun nothing could hurt him.
"make it go away" beomgyu sobs "please hyung it hurts so much i can't do it anymore."
"shh, you're okay. everything's going to be just fine beomgyu," yeonjun assured him before he pressed a soft kiss to beomgyu's forehead.
yeonjun pulled back from the hug and cupped beomgyu's face with one hand and grabbed his glass off water off the table, making beomgyu take a drink before he spoke again.
"lets get you to bed beomgyu, you need to rest" yeonjun whispered, leading beomgyu out of the dining room and down the hall towards his room.
don't believe a word he says beomgyu
he's faking it
"i love you beomgyu. you'll be okay i promise" yeonjun whispers while pulling the duvet over beomgyu's small figure and tucking him nice and cozy.
"i love you too" beomgyu whispered back before closing his eyes.
