Ambivalence// GL STORY

CHAPTER 4

LUNA'S POV
I woke up and carefully went out
so that I won't disturb her
I cook some breakfast for us
Mom probably left early and didn't want to disturb us
"You're cooking?" Oh gosh she startled me
"Oh, you're Awake and Yes I'm gonna prepare it sit down"
While we're eating she's kinda like distracted about something
Or it might be her normal self after waking up who knows
After we finish eating our foods
"You can take a shower on my Bathroom upstairs and I'll take a shower on here"  She just nod
Something's odd but I decided to just shrugged it off

AYAH'S POV
Weird, Why the hell Am I acting like this so sudden?
Why am I being a complete b*tch to her again?
We Arrived in the classroom and my classmates are looking at me with shocked evident on their eyes
"Ayah, Are you okay?"
"Ayah, How are you"
"Ayah, I'm sorry about what happened" Those are the words they kept on Saying
"Ayah, The Principal is Looking for you"
One of my classmate said
"Want me to accompany you?" Luna said stopping me from walking further
"No" I shortly said after that she let me go
and I went back on walking to the office
"Ayah!" My aunt hugged me so tight
"Aunt"
"Why didn't you tell me about what happened to you?"
"Miss Ayah, Mrs. Hansley please sit down while we settle this"
And I suddenly feel hatred on the way the principal called my Aunt using dad's Last name
We sat down and Talk
"Miss Ayah the whole staff are gone on the moment it happened that's why I would formally give you my Apology that I didn't- I mean we couldn't help you"
"What- How did you find out?" I asked
"The CCTV's are open and we saw it when we check all the footages last night"
"And?"
"And the boys are now on the hands of DSWD Because they disobeyed the law"
"WHAT?! THAT'S IT?!" My aunt exclaimed
"Ma'am Calm down"
"How would you Expect me to calm down when those guys did that to my daughter and still on the hands of the DSWD Being taken care of instead of being on the prison regretting what they did!!!!"
"Ma'am we can't hand them to the police they are still minors and they're on the hands of DSWD to learn their Lesson"
"It's easy for you to say that, it's not your daughter
Maybe the reason why many Minor children are doing this Kind of thing is because they know they won't be spending their lives on prison instead they'll be on the DSWD and it felt like they're just taking a vacation"
"Ma'am we have law, Let them Handle it"
""What kind of law was that? A law that Indicates a free Vacation for minors who did a horrible thing kind of law? Wow that's Bullsh*t
"Ma'am language let's not get out of line for we have a children listening to us"
"Well if it's your daughter, Would you just let those guys lurk around while your daughter experienced an Unending trauma"
"I'm still single and Of course I won't let it happened"
"Then do something"
"We did already"
"Yeah, you did something that is not enough and Since I don't want my daughter to experience anything like that again
I'll just transfer her to another school Who would be Able to secure her safety"
"Aunt"
"Ma'am I think it's better to calm down first and not let our emotions decide Let's talk again tomorrow okay and If you want we can give Ayah a break and Just comeback whenever she's ready"
"Let's just talk when you already gave the boys the punishment they deserved"
"Aunt!" I said
She stopped walking and Looked at me
"What is it Ayah?"
"I think it's a little bit too much"
"What is?"
"What you said back there, It's too much"
"That's not too much Ayah, That's simply me being worried about you and what makes me more upset is that you didn't even tell me!"
"I don't want"
"Why? I know I'm not your real Mom-"
"Exactly! Aside from I don't want to talk about it I don't want to tell you cause You're not my real mom Nor My real Parent and you'll never be so don't try to act like one and don't decide for me just because you want it"
"I'm just doing it because that's what's best for you That's the best option I could choose"
"NO, This is your Best Option and that decision of yours have nothing to do with me Because I completely disagree" I said Before running away From her
I heard her called me but I wouldn't dare to go back
"Ayah!" I heard Luna Called me and I Ignore her as well
I ran and ran till I don't know where I'm even going
Sh*t it Rain as Well Wow I feel like I'm in some sort of drama
F*ck My Life I walk and walk and Finally I think I found a safe place this is the cliff where If I decided to die I could just Jump off and I won't Feel A thing 
Oh that's right, I'm on the edge and Finally Closing my eyes
"I Hate This World"  When I'm almost About to fall Someone wrap their arms on My waist
"Ayah! Are you Insane?!" it's Luna And Sudden hatred wants to come out again and Since I don't have a power to fight I just Let it
"MAYBE I AM!!! MAYBE I AM INSANE!!! MAYBE I'M INSANE THAT I WANTED TO DIE BUT IT'S ME IT'S WHAT I WANTED!!!-'
"THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU WANTED!!--"
"AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW?!!!
WHAT DO YOU EVEN KNOW ABOUT ME ASTRID?!!! YOU DON'T KNOW ME ALL I OWE YOU IS WHEN YOU SAVED ME BUT YOU SHOULD HAVE!!!"
"You Should've let me be eaten by those b*stards cause being mean and Arrogant is all I did to you"
"But I don't care, Even though You're brat, Obnoxious and Mean I don't care But I don't want your life to be in danger either"
"Why? Why do you care so much???!! You're just my Classmate Astrid Don't act like you're someone I've known for so Long"
"Even though I'm not I already Care about you and There's nothing you can do with it"
"I can, By Jumping Here And Dying"
"WHAT'S THE POINT OF DYING?!
A lot of people want to live but didn't have a chance and You do!
So don't waste your life on something that you can Just forget"
"No this Is Not just about what happened And I can't forget my Parents Maybe It's Easy for you to say! You're not me you didn't know what happened to me,
You didn't know what I've been through aside from that so don't you F*cking care about me astrid
Because I don't care about you!"
I stand up and ran away
I went to the Cemetery and went to my parents grave
I'm crying heavily and rain doesn't seem like it's about to stop soon
"Dad, Mon Why did you left so soon when I'm still here?"
"Don't you know How Hard it is for me day by day pretending I'm okay"
"I almost got rape and if ever happen again I'll just Let them kill me as well so i can finally be with you"
"I don't wanna Live Anymore, Being Alive Here is just like a torture and I can't face another day knowing I have no one"
"It sucks to Live in the world where I feel like I'm already In Hell"
"I know Mom, you would tell me that 'it's just a challenge my dear'
But I already face a lot of challenges and the Hardest Challenge is Losing the both of you and Dad you're girlfriend is not helping either so can I just die?" Because of too much energy I wasted I fell asleep

LUNA'S POV
OH GOSH!  Where the hell could Ayah be?
The class has been dismissed early cause of the storm and Sh*t that's what I'm more Afraid of
What if Ayah's not Home what if She Continue her Plan Sh*t please no
"Luna?"
"Oh hello Ma'am"
"Just Call Me Aunt, Have you seen Ayah anywhere?"
"Yes I saw Her went out earlier but now I don't have any idea on where she is" I can't say she plan to die earlier by jumping on the cliff to her Aunt
"Where could she possibly be?"
"I'll go first, Aunt"
"Wait it's raining, Do you want me to send you to your house?"
"Ahm--"
"I'll take that as A Yes, Let's Go"
"Okay"
We arrived and the whole ride has been filled with silence well Only the sound of rain can be Heard
"Oh Sweetie you Arrived early"
"The class has been dismissed cause of the storm"
"Oh, Then It's a good thing you arrive safely"
"Ayah's Aunt drive me here"
"Oh is she still there?"
"No, She went out as soon as I enter the door"
"Oh Okay"
"Anyways, I'll go upstairs Mom"
"Sure, I'll bring you a porridge Later"
"Okay"
I went up and Lay my back on the bed Gosh this is so tiring and Now I'm
nervous cause I don't know where she is
"Sh*t Ayah, You're making me nervous about you"