A Good Girl.

Part 13:

The food was good but the atmosphere was terrible. After I answered Elizabeth, she barely looked at me the whole meal, it was like I didn't exist anymore and she was in her own world. At that point, I didn't even understand why I was there since she said that we were going to talk but she has been quiet for the past ten minutes and I was just losing it.

"Elizabeth?" I said quietly but I received no response, "Elizabeth? Eli-"

"Hmmm?" she said, still looking dazed.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I am. I'm just thinking about tomorrow's class and what I'll need for it." She said, and I knew that she was lying because I heard her yesterday asking Mrs Watson about what I missed what she needed on the phone, so I just nodded. She didn't want to tell me what was oon her mind so, I wasn't going to push her.

"So, what now?" I asked, taking my last bit of my sandwich.

"We are going back to my place and then you study while I get ready for tomorrow." She sips her coffee and goes back to being quiet but this time I didn't mind. Maybe the silence between us was a good thing, a lot of unspoken words that seems to find solace in not being said. I look at my nearly empty cup of hot chocolate and for some reason I can't stop the words that go out of my mouth next.

"I did want to do it again."

"Do what?" I regretted saying it, but it wasn't my fault. My mouth had a mind of its own and now she expected me to answer.

"The neck kissing thing. I lied when I said I'm over it, I just said it 'cause you told me that it won't happen so..."

"Oh, uhm... Okay." Okay? That's all she had to say?  I finished my hot chocolate and started fidgeting with my fingers before my phone buzzed remindingbme that I needed to take my pills. I wasn't sure how to call a waiter so I just raised my hand and hoped that I got noticed. Before my arm got tired a waitress passed by and I asked for a glass of water.

Let's get one thing straight, just because I was honest with her it does not mean that I will be doing it with her. I have Kacy now and we were trying something together so my focus will be on her and not on Elizabeth. I have an urge to say that she had her chance but no chance was given because honestly, something unexpected cannot be a chance given. So tomorrow, I only have the morning to spend with Kacy and then later, it's with Diego. I would have them meet but it's too soon for my friend to meet my somewhat girlfriend.

We finally finished up and left the café, Elizabeth was walking in front of me and for the first time I actually realized how tall she was. I was walking in her shadow even if it was late in the evening, her shadow loomed over me, making me feel small or rather, hidden. She walked up straight, she hunch up her shoulders like most women I've seen and she definitely gave off an air of authority but what happened to that air when she was sitting with me in the corner booth? Maybe I'm reading too much into it and she was just uncomfortable with the whole topic but hey, it was not my problem.

The drive back to her place was so quiet I think I dozed off twice. Even the radio was off, she seemed tense as if she was bothered by something. She pulled up in her driveway and gripped the steering wheel before she let out a sigh. She turned to me and smiled a bit before she looked away and rested her head on the steering wheel.

"So, at what time will be going to school tomorrow?" she asked unexpectedly.

"I'll be going around seven and I'm hanging out with Diego after your class so there will be no need for you to drive me back. He will do it, hopefully," I said and looked at her door.

"Okay, but you'll give me a call if you need anything right?"

"Yeah, I will."

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