A Good Girl.

Part 19:

The new week passed by so slowly and it was getting on my nerves that I couldn't hang out with Kacy then but hey, on the bright side, we were done with our examinations. So we made plans to go out tonight to a party, I didn't know whose party it was, I just knew his name not him. I was invited to it as a plus one, I honestly didn't want to go but she practically begged me to go and said that she wanted to show me off as her girlfriend since she was proud to have me. It did comfort me for like an hour but as I stood in the bathroom preparing to go, I wondered if it was all worth it. I know that she wanted to show me off but was I ready for that kind of leap? I didn't think I was so she'll just have to wait before announcing that we were together and it wasn't because I was ashamed of her but it's a bit much, I recently discovered my sexuality so I wanted to be patient with it and not rush to come out to the world when I haven't yet accepted who I was.

I sighed and looked at my reflection one more time, noting the messy bun was a bit lower than I wanted it to and my black knitted sweater and my black jeans were impeccable, not forgetting my shoes of course. I looked good in my all black outfit, it made my brown eyes pop as my mother used to say. I did hope that they were okay wherever they were.

I walked out of the bathroom to find Natalia tying her shoes, she looked good I won't lie. She looked up at me I could see her eyes roaming over my body before her cheeks turned a shade of red, it was kind of funny to think that she might a bit flustered or maybe she was feeling sick, it was probably the latter rather than the former, why would she be flustered?

Natalia and I haven't said anything mean to each for a week, and I wasn't sure if I hated her anymore, so I guess that looked like progress in forgiving her and Elizabeth has been avoiding me or maybe I was just over reading her behaviour but she was acting a little bit weird around me. And Diego? Well he and I met a couple of time during the past week and I got to learn that there was a guy he liked but he didn't know if he was into guys so he's basically stuck. Then, my swelling had decreased significantly but I had to keep taking pills because I had some discomfort from time to time.

"Uhm... You look good," she said and rubbed the back of her neck.

"Uhm... It's weird that you complimented me but thank you, you don't look bad yourself." I said before looking at her from her toes to the top of her head. She wore black cargo pants with a white shirt and a black puffer jacked, her hair fell just above her shoulders encasing her face in what seemed to be a haven that intensified her facial bone structure. But enough about how she looked,  right then, I was pretty sure that it wasn't just Elizabeth who acted weird but Natalia too. Am I dying? I mean why else would the worst person on the planet compliment me? I must be dying, I definitely must be dying.

"Are you going to Parker's party?" I said before throwing my phone on the bed.

"Yeah, I am. Are you?"

"Yes, I am."

"I thought you didn't like parties,"she states and look of confusion covers her face.

"My girlfriend asked me to be her plus one," she nodded at my response and we walked out of the bedroom. She walked to the kitchen and I walked out of the house, the most logical thing to do would have been to wait for her so that we drive to the party together since it was already late but I didn't want to be stuck in the car with her. I'd rather have all my teeth pulled out.

As I walked toward Kacy's house, I realized that I missed hating Natalia with the intensity I had before. I missed wishing that she was miserable, I missed that feeling of not wanting to see her or to just be around her but something happened in the last week that destroyed my hate for her, maybe I was beginning to heal or maybe I was just finally accepting the past for what it was or maybe it was because we slept together on the same bed and woke up cuddling, twice for that matter.